Hallo hallo ~ It has been so long long long time i never update my blog... already three months ~ phew...
Well, recently busy with my works, and already worked for almost three months. Well, lots of problems happen, but i guess will get thru it ...
Anyway, i would like to congratz my fren Elvina, who started her online business recently, selling products like bracelet, necklack, earing, ring... I tried a lot of the products and really quite good quality with reasonable price (at least is cheaper than wat we can get outside and with better qualilty).
This is her link http://bgal-beegal.blogspot.com/ Please feel free to drop by and have a look.
Just to share ^^
I will start updating my blog again, just hopefully that my connection doesn't get worst everynight after i back from work, since that is the only time i can update my blog...
See ya, love ya ...
Sunday, October 11, 2009
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Wednesday, July 22, 2009
moody ~
Feeling not happy at this moment. It has been a while for not updating my blog, due to i had started my first career since last week, and this is already the second week.
Well, a lot of things that i would wish to update, but i am always very tired after work, and there is some time where my network is really bad when i really wish to update my blog ....
Anyway, will update it soon, have lots to share with everyone ....
Btw, not happy at this moment = (
Well, a lot of things that i would wish to update, but i am always very tired after work, and there is some time where my network is really bad when i really wish to update my blog ....
Anyway, will update it soon, have lots to share with everyone ....
Btw, not happy at this moment = (
Sunday, June 28, 2009
Is this called donation ?
After finished blogging bout the sales girl story just now, i suddenly recall another case while i was in KL.
Few months ago, there was a day i was rushing to uni to pass up my thesis. I need to pass by the LRT station so that i can take the cross over and get a taxi to the uni. Just when i reached the LRT station, there came a girl to talk to me saying that " hi, we are doing a recycle campaign............. " I stopped my foot step since the girl stop me with a paper on her hand, and she told me is for recycle campaign and therefore i just stop and take the paper that she passed to me. There was only simple message on the paper informing that the time, date and venue for the recycle campaign and some contact info so that we can call them to collect recycle stuffs. Then i told her, "ok thanks, anything i will contact this number " and just when i wanted to continue walking, she came and stop me again, trying to probe me with her questions, asked things like " how old are u ? u look very young, doesn't seems as your real age........ " " What you studying now ? wow....not bad ..... is good that u have the chance to study ...... " etc.... since i tot she was just asking me politely and so i answered her with patient. But after tat, she try to ask me to do some donation for the old folks home.
Only i realised that, from the beginning, everything was under her control. I mean, at first, she tried to stop me by giving me leaflet about recycle campaign, since i know that it has nothing to do with donation or sales or questionaire and whatever, i just stop and take the leaflet and go. And just when i started to go, she came to talk with me nicely and friendly as if i am a new fren of her and after she understood my background, she started to reveal her ownselve for what they are actually doing.
I didn't want to listen bout the donation stuffs since i was really in a rush and i tell her "is ok, thanks. ..... " but she never wan to give up and keep talking alot with me. I keep telling her that i am really in rush to pass up my thesis and i really need to go and then she keep saying that, please help to donate. I thought ok just to give her mayb one or two ringgit just to get rid of her since it was a donation and she did mention that it was a free-donation, u can donate any amount that u wanted to. So i tell her " Ok, i can donate any amount right ? " and she says yes and she shows me that they will give me a small gift, just as i am actually buying an item from them with any amount. I didn't know wat is inside the packet but just when i started to nod my head n say ok, she starts to show me their receipt, saying that normally ppl will donate this amount, and at the same time showed me the receipt with people donating "Rm 40, Rm 50 ..... etc " I was " wow........." and say i will donate a little onli, then she tells me that i need to donate at least Rm 10 . I was quite pissed off actually cz at first she told me i can donate any amount that i like, i asked "you said i can donate any amount right" and she start to say " yes, but they really need help, so small amount couldn't help much, at least RM 10 will really help out" and at the same time showing me that normally people will donate around RM 40, RM 50 ...... I dun like it, i dun like donation by this way because donation is by mean of charity, is doesn't matter how much i wan to give and supposed that they need to accept any amount that i wanted to give since it is called DONATION. It supposed to be by sincerity and not by forced.
I am really angry to waste the time with her and i straight away tell her, i dun wan, she still holding me back but i insisted that i dun wan to donate and walk away ...... Long long time before i really exposed to life at KL, i like to donate when i see beggars on the street or beggars that came to ask for money. It was because they wont ask for any amount, you can give any amount that you are able to just to help them out. But just when i started to live in KL, i found that beggars are all around the streets, initially i did give donation to the beggars but after that, no more, since i myself do not have so much money to keep on do donation, really sorry for that. Also, after my lifes in KL, only i know that there are lots of cheaters around actually. Some of the beggars are controlled by syndicate to beg for many for them. Some of the beggars are actually just a normal ppl who comes out to cheat money by using other's sympathy.
Well, not that i am discriminating people like this, just that all these are the facts, we can read from the newspaper everyday that how these people cheat other's money, how those syndicate asking for donation by fooling around human's sympathy. Therefore, normally when people come to ask for donation, i will ask for their contact so that next time when i really have the ability, i will go do the donation straight to their center. Not that i am acting cruel, just that there are really too many cheating cases around, and this is the only way that i can do to protect myself from being cheated.
Still, when i really see beggars that especially handicap beggars, i will somehow just give a very small amount of donation. Although there are stil lots of cheaters around, but i think there is still a part of people that really need help, and really have no choice but to beg for money. Anyway, people that are so healthy with their hands, legs, eyes, nose, mouth, ears, but stil come to beg, i will somehow ignore them because you should go find a proper job to earn your own money, but not in this way.
Few months ago, there was a day i was rushing to uni to pass up my thesis. I need to pass by the LRT station so that i can take the cross over and get a taxi to the uni. Just when i reached the LRT station, there came a girl to talk to me saying that " hi, we are doing a recycle campaign............. " I stopped my foot step since the girl stop me with a paper on her hand, and she told me is for recycle campaign and therefore i just stop and take the paper that she passed to me. There was only simple message on the paper informing that the time, date and venue for the recycle campaign and some contact info so that we can call them to collect recycle stuffs. Then i told her, "ok thanks, anything i will contact this number " and just when i wanted to continue walking, she came and stop me again, trying to probe me with her questions, asked things like " how old are u ? u look very young, doesn't seems as your real age........ " " What you studying now ? wow....not bad ..... is good that u have the chance to study ...... " etc.... since i tot she was just asking me politely and so i answered her with patient. But after tat, she try to ask me to do some donation for the old folks home.
Only i realised that, from the beginning, everything was under her control. I mean, at first, she tried to stop me by giving me leaflet about recycle campaign, since i know that it has nothing to do with donation or sales or questionaire and whatever, i just stop and take the leaflet and go. And just when i started to go, she came to talk with me nicely and friendly as if i am a new fren of her and after she understood my background, she started to reveal her ownselve for what they are actually doing.
I didn't want to listen bout the donation stuffs since i was really in a rush and i tell her "is ok, thanks. ..... " but she never wan to give up and keep talking alot with me. I keep telling her that i am really in rush to pass up my thesis and i really need to go and then she keep saying that, please help to donate. I thought ok just to give her mayb one or two ringgit just to get rid of her since it was a donation and she did mention that it was a free-donation, u can donate any amount that u wanted to. So i tell her " Ok, i can donate any amount right ? " and she says yes and she shows me that they will give me a small gift, just as i am actually buying an item from them with any amount. I didn't know wat is inside the packet but just when i started to nod my head n say ok, she starts to show me their receipt, saying that normally ppl will donate this amount, and at the same time showed me the receipt with people donating "Rm 40, Rm 50 ..... etc " I was " wow........." and say i will donate a little onli, then she tells me that i need to donate at least Rm 10 . I was quite pissed off actually cz at first she told me i can donate any amount that i like, i asked "you said i can donate any amount right" and she start to say " yes, but they really need help, so small amount couldn't help much, at least RM 10 will really help out" and at the same time showing me that normally people will donate around RM 40, RM 50 ...... I dun like it, i dun like donation by this way because donation is by mean of charity, is doesn't matter how much i wan to give and supposed that they need to accept any amount that i wanted to give since it is called DONATION. It supposed to be by sincerity and not by forced.
I am really angry to waste the time with her and i straight away tell her, i dun wan, she still holding me back but i insisted that i dun wan to donate and walk away ...... Long long time before i really exposed to life at KL, i like to donate when i see beggars on the street or beggars that came to ask for money. It was because they wont ask for any amount, you can give any amount that you are able to just to help them out. But just when i started to live in KL, i found that beggars are all around the streets, initially i did give donation to the beggars but after that, no more, since i myself do not have so much money to keep on do donation, really sorry for that. Also, after my lifes in KL, only i know that there are lots of cheaters around actually. Some of the beggars are controlled by syndicate to beg for many for them. Some of the beggars are actually just a normal ppl who comes out to cheat money by using other's sympathy.
Well, not that i am discriminating people like this, just that all these are the facts, we can read from the newspaper everyday that how these people cheat other's money, how those syndicate asking for donation by fooling around human's sympathy. Therefore, normally when people come to ask for donation, i will ask for their contact so that next time when i really have the ability, i will go do the donation straight to their center. Not that i am acting cruel, just that there are really too many cheating cases around, and this is the only way that i can do to protect myself from being cheated.
Still, when i really see beggars that especially handicap beggars, i will somehow just give a very small amount of donation. Although there are stil lots of cheaters around, but i think there is still a part of people that really need help, and really have no choice but to beg for money. Anyway, people that are so healthy with their hands, legs, eyes, nose, mouth, ears, but stil come to beg, i will somehow ignore them because you should go find a proper job to earn your own money, but not in this way.
A sales story today
Went to have char kuey teow with mum and dad just now and somehow saw an interesting scene in front of me....
I was eating my char kuey teow and suddenly i heard a gal talking loudly to an indian. Well, she is a chinese gal, who bring some stuffs to walk around and to sell around. She went to an indian guy who was eating with his fren and start to promote her stuffs. I didn't notice at first, until she suddenly keep repeating the same sentence very loudly saying tat "tak ada sample dah, ini saya baru buka punya......tengok, baru buka, tak ada sample dah....... " I guess, she was promoting a shaver to the indian guy and then he was asking for sample and she actually showed a sample which she open from the packet, but dunno wat happen, the indian guys stil wan to see more sample or wat.... i am not sure. Anyway, after some time, the guy finally buy some shaver from her. Then, i can see that she thanks that guy very politely as she keep on repeat "terima kasih abang, terima kasih ah" and at the same time, she put her stuffs on a table and arranging them.
Well, i thought the story ends and i can finally enjoyed my meal peacefully......and suddenly, i heard a voice again, saying "abang, nak beli stokin tak ? ada tebal punya, ada nipis punya.... kalau beli dua saya discount satu ringgit la " ........ That's wat happen after she arranged her stuffs and bring up some socks to show to the guy again. I din bother much wat's their conversation but at first that guy didn't wan to buy it and after some time, i see the guy went to the counter to pay his bill to change some small notes and then give the notes to that gal and deal, she got another business again. And again, she thanks him many times very politely. Wow~~ should i say that the gal really a potential sales girl or the man is too kind? Not to discriminate anything here, just that from my daily life, i seldom see sales person who come around the coffee shop to sell things can have their business done. Normally people wouldn't want to bother them also.
Okay, good day for the girl today as she sold two types of item to a guy. I continued to eat my char keuy teow happily as this time, the girl really keep all her stuffs in her beg properly and seems like she has no more items to sell anymore. After a while...........
"Abang, u ada dengar diamond water tak .............." and wat i see next is there is a brochure on her hand, showing to the same guy, and this time she is gonna promote diamond water to the guy........ My mum, my dad and me, three of us looking at each other with smiles, as we feel the situation is funny because their business never ends, come one and other. Haha....... is this a very good way to sell things? i have not much comment since everyone has their own ways, but i would really respect that girl's determination to keep on continue promoting her staffs one after another and she really promote one by one, after every cash deal and not once for all. I wonder whats the man's thinking at that moment, haha ......
Anyway, at last the man didn't wan to buy any of the diamond water product from her, and this time, she really bring her beg along and walk away.
Hard time is everywhere now and everyone is trying so hard to earn money, just like the girl just now, she really has a strong determination and she also spotted the right and potential customer to promote her things, otherwise there wont be business done one after another by her. Although her way was quite "interesting" to people around like us as our heart was thinking "her product come one after another, never ends and keep on promoting .... ", somehow she has proven that she still able to make two successful business from the same person. From my daily life, sales person like this really hard to get business done as normally people wouldn't want to bother them at all and their stuffs were things that we can even buy it in the supermarket. Especially can see a lot of foreigners bring around watches, pens, drawings etc .... i wonder how much they earn a day?
However, everyone is trying their way to earn money, that's why, as long as they are doing the right and legal things, we stil need to respect them and their jobs..... so leeleegurl, u also need to work hard and to get a job soon soon soon soon !!!
I was eating my char kuey teow and suddenly i heard a gal talking loudly to an indian. Well, she is a chinese gal, who bring some stuffs to walk around and to sell around. She went to an indian guy who was eating with his fren and start to promote her stuffs. I didn't notice at first, until she suddenly keep repeating the same sentence very loudly saying tat "tak ada sample dah, ini saya baru buka punya......tengok, baru buka, tak ada sample dah....... " I guess, she was promoting a shaver to the indian guy and then he was asking for sample and she actually showed a sample which she open from the packet, but dunno wat happen, the indian guys stil wan to see more sample or wat.... i am not sure. Anyway, after some time, the guy finally buy some shaver from her. Then, i can see that she thanks that guy very politely as she keep on repeat "terima kasih abang, terima kasih ah" and at the same time, she put her stuffs on a table and arranging them.
Well, i thought the story ends and i can finally enjoyed my meal peacefully......and suddenly, i heard a voice again, saying "abang, nak beli stokin tak ? ada tebal punya, ada nipis punya.... kalau beli dua saya discount satu ringgit la " ........ That's wat happen after she arranged her stuffs and bring up some socks to show to the guy again. I din bother much wat's their conversation but at first that guy didn't wan to buy it and after some time, i see the guy went to the counter to pay his bill to change some small notes and then give the notes to that gal and deal, she got another business again. And again, she thanks him many times very politely. Wow~~ should i say that the gal really a potential sales girl or the man is too kind? Not to discriminate anything here, just that from my daily life, i seldom see sales person who come around the coffee shop to sell things can have their business done. Normally people wouldn't want to bother them also.
Okay, good day for the girl today as she sold two types of item to a guy. I continued to eat my char keuy teow happily as this time, the girl really keep all her stuffs in her beg properly and seems like she has no more items to sell anymore. After a while...........
"Abang, u ada dengar diamond water tak .............." and wat i see next is there is a brochure on her hand, showing to the same guy, and this time she is gonna promote diamond water to the guy........ My mum, my dad and me, three of us looking at each other with smiles, as we feel the situation is funny because their business never ends, come one and other. Haha....... is this a very good way to sell things? i have not much comment since everyone has their own ways, but i would really respect that girl's determination to keep on continue promoting her staffs one after another and she really promote one by one, after every cash deal and not once for all. I wonder whats the man's thinking at that moment, haha ......
Anyway, at last the man didn't wan to buy any of the diamond water product from her, and this time, she really bring her beg along and walk away.
Hard time is everywhere now and everyone is trying so hard to earn money, just like the girl just now, she really has a strong determination and she also spotted the right and potential customer to promote her things, otherwise there wont be business done one after another by her. Although her way was quite "interesting" to people around like us as our heart was thinking "her product come one after another, never ends and keep on promoting .... ", somehow she has proven that she still able to make two successful business from the same person. From my daily life, sales person like this really hard to get business done as normally people wouldn't want to bother them at all and their stuffs were things that we can even buy it in the supermarket. Especially can see a lot of foreigners bring around watches, pens, drawings etc .... i wonder how much they earn a day?
However, everyone is trying their way to earn money, that's why, as long as they are doing the right and legal things, we stil need to respect them and their jobs..... so leeleegurl, u also need to work hard and to get a job soon soon soon soon !!!
Saturday, June 27, 2009
Good Bye Oil and Gas .......... [with heartache]
Jie Fu Ry ~~~ bad jie fu ry~~~ make me think of the oil and gas company's interview again.... make my heart so painful now.... arhhhh...... make me recall of how stupid am i to miss the good chance to enter this industry...... sobsob ...
I was waiting for good news from them, how i wish that the HR manager can call me for an interview.... because tat day i was just having a short interview with a head, but not yet a formal face to face interview with the HR, but ...... as i mentioned in my blog, i dun think that the person is satisfy with me from the short interview because i really failed to perform well....... and til now, no any news from them at all =(
Sigh ~~~ how i wish that there is a second chance. .... but, no matter how, i need to learn to let go now.....
Still.... i wish to have good news from them, wish me luck ~
I was waiting for good news from them, how i wish that the HR manager can call me for an interview.... because tat day i was just having a short interview with a head, but not yet a formal face to face interview with the HR, but ...... as i mentioned in my blog, i dun think that the person is satisfy with me from the short interview because i really failed to perform well....... and til now, no any news from them at all =(
Sigh ~~~ how i wish that there is a second chance. .... but, no matter how, i need to learn to let go now.....
Still.... i wish to have good news from them, wish me luck ~
Friday, June 26, 2009
天平座 (Libra) ~ This is mine and really accurate !
天平座的爱情>>
天平在爱情方面是一个为别人而活的星座。天平的被动更是让很多天平们错过了自己的真爱。天平不懂得拒绝，天平面对一个自己明明不喜欢的人，只要那人能主动积极一点，那天平是不会拒绝的，因为天平觉得拒绝会伤害你。为了不伤害你，天平只有牺牲自己。或者，天平会为你对他哪怕是一句关心的话而感动，就为了感谢你这句关心的话而和你在一起，因为天平永远都是追求平衡的，他认为你付出了哪怕是一句关心的话他就应该回报你，而不是真的因为爱你才和你在一起。(感动不等于爱)而且天平将'责任'二字看得太重，却又未认识到'责任'的真正精髓所在，以至于用了一种对自己极其残酷的方式给'责任'下着定义。
天平不爱对方，却要坚持对对方不离不弃。这是一个力求公平的天平的善良抉择，更是一个近乎愚蠢的抉择。这是天平的悲哀。只能说天平懂得负责任，却真的不理解 '责任'。可是懂得负责也变成了一种错误吗？天平认为责任比爱情重要，却未想过幸福也同样重要。你完全有理由责备天平，但是在你责备天平的同时可曾想过其实最可悲的正是天平。天平的要求真的不高，只是需要有人理解自己而已。但是，谁又能理解天平呢？
还有一点，天平在爱情方面确实是比较优柔寡断犹豫不决，这点必须承认。但是天平为什么会这样？因为天平想的事很多想的很远，天平觉得如果要爱一个人就要让对方快乐。这里说的'快乐 '包括很多，比如说有没有足够的经济能力来维持平时和你在一起时的花销，能不能让你每天都开心，自己的朋友和父母会接受你吗？你的父母朋友能接受自己吗？甚至可能会想到结婚以后你们孩子的模样漂亮吗？。。。。。等等，还有许多问题！你说天平能不犹豫吗？天平是出了名的12个星座最懒的，如果不是因为爱你天平根本懒的考虑那么多！如果天平一旦确定你就是他深爱的人并且确定了你们的恋爱关系以后，那么这时候天平追求完美的一面就展现出来了。
这时的天平满脑子就是想如何做到最好让你觉得自己是世界上最幸福的人。和天平恋爱过的人应该都知道这一点吧，刚和天平恋爱时的感觉简直太完美了，一些只有在电影和小说里面出现的情景会经常出现在你们身上，你会感觉现在的你真的就是世界上最幸福的人。这时的天平只要每天能看到深爱的人开心一笑就算付出在大的代价也愿意！由于刚恋爱时的天平表现的太完美了，以至于对方已经习惯了天平的这种完美表现，这在对方的心理已经是对天平的一种标准，所以天平只要稍稍表现的不够以前好，对方就会不习惯，就会觉得天平不爱她了！可是，这个世界上谁也不可能永远都做的这么好，天平也不能，虽然这时天平依然深爱着对方！对方的抱怨让天平觉得自己很委屈，自己付出了那么多对方却还不满足，还说自己不够好，所以天平就会觉得自己的付出不值得，到最后当然就只剩下分手!
在这里给所有天平朋友一个忠告，细水常流，平平淡淡才是真，不可能每一天都是完美的！烟花确实绚烂，但是注定短暂！
这里在特别说一下天平男。天平男花心吗？也许吧。但是所谓天平男的花心又和其他人不同，最原则性的不同在于天平男的花心跟爱情本身不关。所谓天平男的花心应该理解为是一种博爱。天平男认为世界上一切事物都是美好的，而女人更是这个美丽世界中的一个个艺术品。所以女人是要用来好好呵护的，与爱无关！这是天平男一种怜香惜玉的本质。这种本质是天平与生俱来的，是根深蒂固的。
天平真正意义上爱一个人时是和那种怜香惜玉的爱是有本质上的区别的。天平真正爱上一个人时，天平在心中会把爱人奉为自己的女神，不仅有爱，更多的是一种尊敬甚至崇拜！反过来说，天平面对自己真正深爱的人时内心会有那么一点小小的自卑。这里的自卑不是平时大家所说的因某种缺陷自卑，这种自卑是相对于'完美'二字来说的。大家也许会怀疑，自信又自恋的天平也会自卑？
是的，因为天平面对爱人的时候总希望自己做到完美，但是天平不明白完美只是一种传说一种境界，世界上没有人是完美的，天平也不能，所以这时天平就会产生自卑感。要求完美的天平对自己的不完美很不满意，觉得自己配不上心爱的人，所以很多天平宁愿选择放弃(其实天平在对方心目中天平已经很好了，只是当天平深爱一个人时鲜前昱＝羌？。但是放弃不等于不爱。天平对自己深爱的人是一辈子都不会忘的。放弃对天平来说另一种爱，天平会永远把深爱的人深深埋在心里的某个角落默默的为对方祈祷祝福！天平不是因为寂寞才会爱上一个人，天平是因为爱上一个人才寂寞！
天平对于自己内心真正的想法很少对人倾诉，因为天平深知沉默才能坚强。所以，除了天平自己之外没有人能真正了解天平，除非你来生有幸作为一个天平时用生命来体会一次。。。。。。不管是谁对谁错，一切的过错都由天平背负着，任由人们误会，任由人们无端的指责甚至漫骂，天平只是轻描淡写的一笑而过，在人前永远保持着优雅的微笑。一切是命中注定，无需多言，我们即然是天秤，太懂得去分析事情的轻与重，善与恶，真与假了。所以说对于本身也是一种负罪吧。因为都看透了。
对于真不真心，懂的人自然了解，不懂的人也不想再多说，因为我们是天秤，骄傲的天平！传说中有位骑士名叫天平，英俊，迷人，优雅，高贵。。。。。。黑夜中，西风吹过;白马上，骑士仰望星空;手中有剑，心中有爱，骑士正在为他心爱的人祈祷平安幸福！夜，还是那么黑。路，还有那么远。人，还那么寂寞！拍拍身上的灰尘，振作疲惫的精神，抚平疼痛的伤口，远方也许尽是坎坷路，骑士却仍然微笑着上路了.虽然心碎了无痕，依旧白马啸西风！
关于天平的友情和人际关系:>>
'朋友'二字对于天平有多重要是一般人不能理解的。这么说吧，天平把友情看的重要。因为天平是一个特别害怕孤独的星座，天平不会享受孤独。每个天平都有轻微的抑郁症，孤独就是诱发天平抑郁症的罪魁祸首！而抑郁症的最大特点就是厌世，这绝不是危言耸听，孤独就是能让天平产生厌世的感觉。天平是活在人群中的人，只有在人群中天平才能找到自我的位置发挥自我的价值。所以天平总是希望自己的朋友多些在多些。对于自己不喜欢的人，天平虽不愿把他当做朋友但还是希望对方能把自己当成朋友，但凡是天平认识的人天平绝不会轻易得罪。
为了维持这种和谐的关系，天平不的不圆滑一点虚伪一点，见人说人话见鬼说鬼话。其实天平真的很累的。绝大多数的时候，天平的朋友受到伤害和委屈了，天平总是第一时间出现在朋友旁边安慰和关心朋友，给朋友以最大的鼓励，但是当天平受伤时却很少得到这样的待遇。换句话说，天平的朋友看上去虽然很多，但是知心朋友却很少，能了解天平内心的更始微乎其微。天平对每个朋友都很好，而且都是一样的好，以至于大家都不知道天平对谁是真心真意对谁是虚情假意。天平一生都致力于创造一个自己心目中理想的和谐的美丽新世界，在那个世界中没有明争暗斗，没有尔虞我诈，大家都是好朋友，所有人都互相关心，互相照顾。总之，天平对朋友是最无私的，宁愿天下人负我，我不负天下人是天平对于与朋友关系的最好的一句话概括。如果你有朋友是天平的话，那么你应该感到幸运！
天平在爱情方面是一个为别人而活的星座。天平的被动更是让很多天平们错过了自己的真爱。天平不懂得拒绝，天平面对一个自己明明不喜欢的人，只要那人能主动积极一点，那天平是不会拒绝的，因为天平觉得拒绝会伤害你。为了不伤害你，天平只有牺牲自己。或者，天平会为你对他哪怕是一句关心的话而感动，就为了感谢你这句关心的话而和你在一起，因为天平永远都是追求平衡的，他认为你付出了哪怕是一句关心的话他就应该回报你，而不是真的因为爱你才和你在一起。(感动不等于爱)而且天平将'责任'二字看得太重，却又未认识到'责任'的真正精髓所在，以至于用了一种对自己极其残酷的方式给'责任'下着定义。
天平不爱对方，却要坚持对对方不离不弃。这是一个力求公平的天平的善良抉择，更是一个近乎愚蠢的抉择。这是天平的悲哀。只能说天平懂得负责任，却真的不理解 '责任'。可是懂得负责也变成了一种错误吗？天平认为责任比爱情重要，却未想过幸福也同样重要。你完全有理由责备天平，但是在你责备天平的同时可曾想过其实最可悲的正是天平。天平的要求真的不高，只是需要有人理解自己而已。但是，谁又能理解天平呢？
还有一点，天平在爱情方面确实是比较优柔寡断犹豫不决，这点必须承认。但是天平为什么会这样？因为天平想的事很多想的很远，天平觉得如果要爱一个人就要让对方快乐。这里说的'快乐 '包括很多，比如说有没有足够的经济能力来维持平时和你在一起时的花销，能不能让你每天都开心，自己的朋友和父母会接受你吗？你的父母朋友能接受自己吗？甚至可能会想到结婚以后你们孩子的模样漂亮吗？。。。。。等等，还有许多问题！你说天平能不犹豫吗？天平是出了名的12个星座最懒的，如果不是因为爱你天平根本懒的考虑那么多！如果天平一旦确定你就是他深爱的人并且确定了你们的恋爱关系以后，那么这时候天平追求完美的一面就展现出来了。
这时的天平满脑子就是想如何做到最好让你觉得自己是世界上最幸福的人。和天平恋爱过的人应该都知道这一点吧，刚和天平恋爱时的感觉简直太完美了，一些只有在电影和小说里面出现的情景会经常出现在你们身上，你会感觉现在的你真的就是世界上最幸福的人。这时的天平只要每天能看到深爱的人开心一笑就算付出在大的代价也愿意！由于刚恋爱时的天平表现的太完美了，以至于对方已经习惯了天平的这种完美表现，这在对方的心理已经是对天平的一种标准，所以天平只要稍稍表现的不够以前好，对方就会不习惯，就会觉得天平不爱她了！可是，这个世界上谁也不可能永远都做的这么好，天平也不能，虽然这时天平依然深爱着对方！对方的抱怨让天平觉得自己很委屈，自己付出了那么多对方却还不满足，还说自己不够好，所以天平就会觉得自己的付出不值得，到最后当然就只剩下分手!
在这里给所有天平朋友一个忠告，细水常流，平平淡淡才是真，不可能每一天都是完美的！烟花确实绚烂，但是注定短暂！
这里在特别说一下天平男。天平男花心吗？也许吧。但是所谓天平男的花心又和其他人不同，最原则性的不同在于天平男的花心跟爱情本身不关。所谓天平男的花心应该理解为是一种博爱。天平男认为世界上一切事物都是美好的，而女人更是这个美丽世界中的一个个艺术品。所以女人是要用来好好呵护的，与爱无关！这是天平男一种怜香惜玉的本质。这种本质是天平与生俱来的，是根深蒂固的。
天平真正意义上爱一个人时是和那种怜香惜玉的爱是有本质上的区别的。天平真正爱上一个人时，天平在心中会把爱人奉为自己的女神，不仅有爱，更多的是一种尊敬甚至崇拜！反过来说，天平面对自己真正深爱的人时内心会有那么一点小小的自卑。这里的自卑不是平时大家所说的因某种缺陷自卑，这种自卑是相对于'完美'二字来说的。大家也许会怀疑，自信又自恋的天平也会自卑？
是的，因为天平面对爱人的时候总希望自己做到完美，但是天平不明白完美只是一种传说一种境界，世界上没有人是完美的，天平也不能，所以这时天平就会产生自卑感。要求完美的天平对自己的不完美很不满意，觉得自己配不上心爱的人，所以很多天平宁愿选择放弃(其实天平在对方心目中天平已经很好了，只是当天平深爱一个人时鲜前昱＝羌？。但是放弃不等于不爱。天平对自己深爱的人是一辈子都不会忘的。放弃对天平来说另一种爱，天平会永远把深爱的人深深埋在心里的某个角落默默的为对方祈祷祝福！天平不是因为寂寞才会爱上一个人，天平是因为爱上一个人才寂寞！
天平对于自己内心真正的想法很少对人倾诉，因为天平深知沉默才能坚强。所以，除了天平自己之外没有人能真正了解天平，除非你来生有幸作为一个天平时用生命来体会一次。。。。。。不管是谁对谁错，一切的过错都由天平背负着，任由人们误会，任由人们无端的指责甚至漫骂，天平只是轻描淡写的一笑而过，在人前永远保持着优雅的微笑。一切是命中注定，无需多言，我们即然是天秤，太懂得去分析事情的轻与重，善与恶，真与假了。所以说对于本身也是一种负罪吧。因为都看透了。
对于真不真心，懂的人自然了解，不懂的人也不想再多说，因为我们是天秤，骄傲的天平！传说中有位骑士名叫天平，英俊，迷人，优雅，高贵。。。。。。黑夜中，西风吹过;白马上，骑士仰望星空;手中有剑，心中有爱，骑士正在为他心爱的人祈祷平安幸福！夜，还是那么黑。路，还有那么远。人，还那么寂寞！拍拍身上的灰尘，振作疲惫的精神，抚平疼痛的伤口，远方也许尽是坎坷路，骑士却仍然微笑着上路了.虽然心碎了无痕，依旧白马啸西风！
关于天平的友情和人际关系:>>
'朋友'二字对于天平有多重要是一般人不能理解的。这么说吧，天平把友情看的重要。因为天平是一个特别害怕孤独的星座，天平不会享受孤独。每个天平都有轻微的抑郁症，孤独就是诱发天平抑郁症的罪魁祸首！而抑郁症的最大特点就是厌世，这绝不是危言耸听，孤独就是能让天平产生厌世的感觉。天平是活在人群中的人，只有在人群中天平才能找到自我的位置发挥自我的价值。所以天平总是希望自己的朋友多些在多些。对于自己不喜欢的人，天平虽不愿把他当做朋友但还是希望对方能把自己当成朋友，但凡是天平认识的人天平绝不会轻易得罪。
为了维持这种和谐的关系，天平不的不圆滑一点虚伪一点，见人说人话见鬼说鬼话。其实天平真的很累的。绝大多数的时候，天平的朋友受到伤害和委屈了，天平总是第一时间出现在朋友旁边安慰和关心朋友，给朋友以最大的鼓励，但是当天平受伤时却很少得到这样的待遇。换句话说，天平的朋友看上去虽然很多，但是知心朋友却很少，能了解天平内心的更始微乎其微。天平对每个朋友都很好，而且都是一样的好，以至于大家都不知道天平对谁是真心真意对谁是虚情假意。天平一生都致力于创造一个自己心目中理想的和谐的美丽新世界，在那个世界中没有明争暗斗，没有尔虞我诈，大家都是好朋友，所有人都互相关心，互相照顾。总之，天平对朋友是最无私的，宁愿天下人负我，我不负天下人是天平对于与朋友关系的最好的一句话概括。如果你有朋友是天平的话，那么你应该感到幸运！
Not in a good mood today (v_v)
I got my first interview today, i got a call from their HR Manager to talk to me about my application, and then she pass the call to a Head to have a short interview with me. Well, i din do really well in the interview thru phone just now and i was quite nervous as this happen quite sudden.
Well, cut the story short, wat make me sad was that i got the wrong company name and tats lead me for a wrong company information ..... and i was so embarrassing during the interview just now as i asked them the wrong company name and end up i need to ask for the correct company name, OMG !
Actually this company was recommended by my ex-boss, and also helped out by my dad's fren, few days ago, my dad sent me an email, which is an email from his fren, saying tat my ex-boss's fren need a material engineer and he recommended me and asked me to call for job opportunity, but unfortunately, he mistaken the company's name, it should be *EV , but he type wrongly as *VE , which is also doing engineering field company, but with different industry. That's why i found the wrong info bout the company. After tat, when i do research on this company, onli i realised, wow, is an oil and gas industry company, is an industry field that many of us wil opt to go for and is really hard to get in, especially with my lousy result. I felt so wasted because if i could know the company correct information, then i wil ans more better just now.
Well, what passed is passed, just hope for a better day tomolo ~~ But, i am really grateful to everyone who helped me, especially my dad, and also my ex-boss who recommended me into that company. This really shows that, one who sincerely perform well in the company will get their pay one day.
I felt moody whole day, for not perform perfectly just now, although is just a phone interview, but ... really missed a good chance. However, i am feeling better now after sharing in this blog.
Wish to have a better chance tomolo ~ Gambatte !
[p/s: Shocking news today, Michael Jackson passed away, quite sad also.... wish him rest in peace]
Well, cut the story short, wat make me sad was that i got the wrong company name and tats lead me for a wrong company information ..... and i was so embarrassing during the interview just now as i asked them the wrong company name and end up i need to ask for the correct company name, OMG !
Actually this company was recommended by my ex-boss, and also helped out by my dad's fren, few days ago, my dad sent me an email, which is an email from his fren, saying tat my ex-boss's fren need a material engineer and he recommended me and asked me to call for job opportunity, but unfortunately, he mistaken the company's name, it should be *EV , but he type wrongly as *VE , which is also doing engineering field company, but with different industry. That's why i found the wrong info bout the company. After tat, when i do research on this company, onli i realised, wow, is an oil and gas industry company, is an industry field that many of us wil opt to go for and is really hard to get in, especially with my lousy result. I felt so wasted because if i could know the company correct information, then i wil ans more better just now.
Well, what passed is passed, just hope for a better day tomolo ~~ But, i am really grateful to everyone who helped me, especially my dad, and also my ex-boss who recommended me into that company. This really shows that, one who sincerely perform well in the company will get their pay one day.
I felt moody whole day, for not perform perfectly just now, although is just a phone interview, but ... really missed a good chance. However, i am feeling better now after sharing in this blog.
Wish to have a better chance tomolo ~ Gambatte !
[p/s: Shocking news today, Michael Jackson passed away, quite sad also.... wish him rest in peace]
Thursday, June 25, 2009
Good Morning ~~~!
Good morning world, lolx..... ^_^
This morning, woke up at 7am and then went out to the mini leisure park behind my house with my mum for exercise, again !!! But actually, today is onli the second day. Yesterday was the first day. At last, i have realized my dream, that is to wake up early in the morning for exercises, wahahaha (^O^)
Yesterday was the first day and everything went smooth, but one thing that make me really not fully enjoy was that there was a dog, keep running around the park, but i think the owner brings his dog along to exercise together, but, i was really in fear, i really had a nightmare with dogs since i had been attacked by dog around 4 years ago.
Around 4 years ago, there was a dog opposite my house, i am not sure whether the dog has its owner onot because sometime, i saw the dog just move around my opposite house and they never chase the dog out, but then, sometime i saw that the dog just moved around outside itself and they locked the door and not allow the dog to go in. What worse was that during raining days, the dog stil couldn't get into the house and just stand outside the house with the whole body wet. It was really a pity dog and therefore sometime we will feed the dog. One night, i went to feed to dog, i never know that u cant touch the dog's head when the dog is eating (REMEMBER THIS!) and i touched the dog's head when the dog is eating and wat happened next, the dog attacked me, and keep biting me. I fell on the street and being attacked by the dog, i was in a great fear, fear of the dog that keep on attacked me by its teeth, and also fear of cars coming around since i fell on the center of the road.
But one thing funny was that, my neighbour's cat, (which my mum hate the most, because it always came in to steal fish) saw wat happened and actually came to "help" me. That was a brave cat, it came to try "argue" with the dog to ask the dog to let go of me (i guess, hahaha). Finally, my brother came out with a stick to chase the dog and i was hurt on my hand and leg. The dog bit my leg and my hand was hurt because i scratched the road. After that i need to go to the clinic for vaccine and the scar on my hand stil with me until now =(
Since that day, i really fear of dog, i was actually a dog lover, but stil, i am scare. Oh! After tat attack, i was actually being attacked by dog again during my studies at KL. I was on the way home from my fren's house at Alpha condo and when i walked along the car park, there came few dogs, not few, is quite many actually, around 6++ of dogs suddenly run to me and keep on attacked a plastic bag that i am holding and the plastic bag was just a stack of paper inside,i dun understand what they are attacking for? I was really in fear and i shouted, i cant run cz i scare they wil chase me and at last, a van passed by and help me to chase the dog away. Oh my , i was really in fear, what had i done to dogs? I never eat dog's meat at all, y they keep coming to attack me?
Well, that was my experienced with "dog attack", which make me really having a nightmare with dogs now. That is why i din enjoy much for my exercise yesterday because i saw there is a dog keep on running around, and at time, there was a group of dogs coming around too.... I dare not jog a lot because i am afraid that the dogs might come chase me and attack me again. But luckily there are few exercise equipment for me to exercise.
Today, so lucky that there is onli one dog around, which is the same dog with its owner. But unfortunately i am having stomach ache so i din jog much, just walk along the track. However, i found that today i am acting like a psycho girl. I am acting over sensitive to everything around me, when i heard some noise behind, i wil keep looking back, when there was a crow suddenly flew over me, my reaction is so over (although i din scream, luckily...). Anyway, i am acting like a person who so afraid of everything around me, i guess, i am really really really too scare of dogs, especially big and wild dog.
Well, just would like to share that, is really feels good to exercise early in the morning, especially after exercise, back home to have a cold shower, wow!! The feeling is real great ! Friends, exercise more as this really keep our body healthy and for girls, exercise will make our complexion glows. So, spend at least 20minutes a day, and at least 3 times a week, to keep ur body healthy ! Be healthy ^_^
This morning, woke up at 7am and then went out to the mini leisure park behind my house with my mum for exercise, again !!! But actually, today is onli the second day. Yesterday was the first day. At last, i have realized my dream, that is to wake up early in the morning for exercises, wahahaha (^O^)
Yesterday was the first day and everything went smooth, but one thing that make me really not fully enjoy was that there was a dog, keep running around the park, but i think the owner brings his dog along to exercise together, but, i was really in fear, i really had a nightmare with dogs since i had been attacked by dog around 4 years ago.
Around 4 years ago, there was a dog opposite my house, i am not sure whether the dog has its owner onot because sometime, i saw the dog just move around my opposite house and they never chase the dog out, but then, sometime i saw that the dog just moved around outside itself and they locked the door and not allow the dog to go in. What worse was that during raining days, the dog stil couldn't get into the house and just stand outside the house with the whole body wet. It was really a pity dog and therefore sometime we will feed the dog. One night, i went to feed to dog, i never know that u cant touch the dog's head when the dog is eating (REMEMBER THIS!) and i touched the dog's head when the dog is eating and wat happened next, the dog attacked me, and keep biting me. I fell on the street and being attacked by the dog, i was in a great fear, fear of the dog that keep on attacked me by its teeth, and also fear of cars coming around since i fell on the center of the road.
But one thing funny was that, my neighbour's cat, (which my mum hate the most, because it always came in to steal fish) saw wat happened and actually came to "help" me. That was a brave cat, it came to try "argue" with the dog to ask the dog to let go of me (i guess, hahaha). Finally, my brother came out with a stick to chase the dog and i was hurt on my hand and leg. The dog bit my leg and my hand was hurt because i scratched the road. After that i need to go to the clinic for vaccine and the scar on my hand stil with me until now =(
Since that day, i really fear of dog, i was actually a dog lover, but stil, i am scare. Oh! After tat attack, i was actually being attacked by dog again during my studies at KL. I was on the way home from my fren's house at Alpha condo and when i walked along the car park, there came few dogs, not few, is quite many actually, around 6++ of dogs suddenly run to me and keep on attacked a plastic bag that i am holding and the plastic bag was just a stack of paper inside,i dun understand what they are attacking for? I was really in fear and i shouted, i cant run cz i scare they wil chase me and at last, a van passed by and help me to chase the dog away. Oh my , i was really in fear, what had i done to dogs? I never eat dog's meat at all, y they keep coming to attack me?
Well, that was my experienced with "dog attack", which make me really having a nightmare with dogs now. That is why i din enjoy much for my exercise yesterday because i saw there is a dog keep on running around, and at time, there was a group of dogs coming around too.... I dare not jog a lot because i am afraid that the dogs might come chase me and attack me again. But luckily there are few exercise equipment for me to exercise.
Today, so lucky that there is onli one dog around, which is the same dog with its owner. But unfortunately i am having stomach ache so i din jog much, just walk along the track. However, i found that today i am acting like a psycho girl. I am acting over sensitive to everything around me, when i heard some noise behind, i wil keep looking back, when there was a crow suddenly flew over me, my reaction is so over (although i din scream, luckily...). Anyway, i am acting like a person who so afraid of everything around me, i guess, i am really really really too scare of dogs, especially big and wild dog.
Well, just would like to share that, is really feels good to exercise early in the morning, especially after exercise, back home to have a cold shower, wow!! The feeling is real great ! Friends, exercise more as this really keep our body healthy and for girls, exercise will make our complexion glows. So, spend at least 20minutes a day, and at least 3 times a week, to keep ur body healthy ! Be healthy ^_^
Friday, June 19, 2009
毕业后的我
好啦，好久没写部落格了，原因是因为这几个星期我都一直去这去那的，而且加上网线不好，也使得我很没心情写部落格了。
算一算，原来我都距离毕业差不多一个月多的时间了，而且我要在这里慎重的宣布：我毕业了！！！ Yeah Y(^_^)Y 虽然成绩也没很好，但总算是有惊无险的毕业了 !
自毕业后。。让我想想我都做了什么，嗯。。就。。 回家，然后和朋友去 Pulau Perhentian 毕业旅行，然后回来KL和朋友在聚聚，然后又回家，后又回到了老家，Kemaman, 后又回家，然后又在回来KL,迎接我的宝贝啊圆来到KL找我聚聚。。。。差不多就是这样咯。。也玩了一个月没找工作，哈哈，毕竟读了十九年叻，总该休息一下。
无论如何，我的假期节目已宣告完毕，现在是认真找工的时候了。。。。
对了，我找工的径途都是从报纸，和网站，以下是几个可供参考的网站：
1）http://www.jobsdb.com.my/Malaysia/
２）http://www.star-jobs.com/
３）http://www.jobstreet.com.my/
4）http://www.jenjobs.com/
暂时也没任何interview，希望我可以快点找到工作吧，其实也不是很想做回我说读的这行，但没办法，我总该试试，好给父母一个交待吧。。。。。
好了，是时候要收拾了，因为迟写要回家了。有时间我再写写我的假期旅行吧 ^_^
对了，我的毕业典礼将在9/8/2009 (Sunday), 1.00pm, Wisma MCA.... 有空来出席吧，谢谢。。。
算一算，原来我都距离毕业差不多一个月多的时间了，而且我要在这里慎重的宣布：我毕业了！！！ Yeah Y(^_^)Y 虽然成绩也没很好，但总算是有惊无险的毕业了 !
自毕业后。。让我想想我都做了什么，嗯。。就。。 回家，然后和朋友去 Pulau Perhentian 毕业旅行，然后回来KL和朋友在聚聚，然后又回家，后又回到了老家，Kemaman, 后又回家，然后又在回来KL,迎接我的宝贝啊圆来到KL找我聚聚。。。。差不多就是这样咯。。也玩了一个月没找工作，哈哈，毕竟读了十九年叻，总该休息一下。
无论如何，我的假期节目已宣告完毕，现在是认真找工的时候了。。。。
对了，我找工的径途都是从报纸，和网站，以下是几个可供参考的网站：
1）http://www.jobsdb.com.my/Malaysia/
２）http://www.star-jobs.com/
３）http://www.jobstreet.com.my/
4）http://www.jenjobs.com/
暂时也没任何interview，希望我可以快点找到工作吧，其实也不是很想做回我说读的这行，但没办法，我总该试试，好给父母一个交待吧。。。。。
好了，是时候要收拾了，因为迟写要回家了。有时间我再写写我的假期旅行吧 ^_^
对了，我的毕业典礼将在9/8/2009 (Sunday), 1.00pm, Wisma MCA.... 有空来出席吧，谢谢。。。
写给啊鸿的。。。。
感谢我的一位红颜知己，正确来说是曾经的红颜知己，因为我们也好一段日子没好好联络了。
没想过我的部落格也有忠实粉丝，哈哈哈，谢谢你咯，啊鸿 ^_^ 虽然知道看看我的部落格应该也是为了你过过时间，但也已经足够了！！
这一篇是为你而写的，虽然很简短，但我真的想表达我的喜悦和感激，谢谢你的期待与支持咯 ^_^
没想过我的部落格也有忠实粉丝，哈哈哈，谢谢你咯，啊鸿 ^_^ 虽然知道看看我的部落格应该也是为了你过过时间，但也已经足够了！！
这一篇是为你而写的，虽然很简短，但我真的想表达我的喜悦和感激，谢谢你的期待与支持咯 ^_^
Saturday, May 16, 2009
三个爱情故事
昨天和今天听了三个爱情故事∶
第一:
有个女生，爱上了一个不该爱的人。她爱上了一个原本很不错的男生，但后来学会赌博而迷上了赌博，成了赌徒。曾经女生真的很爱他，为了帮他渡过难关而到处向人借钱，只为了让他还渡过难关。她甚至利用了另一个对她好的男生，向他借钱后瞒着那男生去为男友还债。可惜她男友从不珍惜，依然烂赌成性，甚至还让女生成了向大耳窿借债的债主，让女生活在生不如死的生活。女生从来不敢告诉家人，朋友，自己一个人默默承受这一切。可恶的男友，还一而再的威胁女生说，如果不帮他，他就会告诉女生的家人说女生到处欠债，这男生真的有够贱！女生的朋友开始发觉女生有心事，终于有一天，女生将所有事情都说出来了，而朋友们都一直劝说要这女生尽快离开那男生。最后，这女生也真的离开了那男友，女生为男友所背负的大耳窿债也好彩的解决了。。。。
第二∶
有个女生，本来拥有一个四年感情的男友，但女生一直嫌男友学历低，没上进心，而最后女生与四年的男友分手了。不久后，女生与另一个男生开始了一段新的恋情。可那新男友也不见得拥有比前男友还好的条件，但女生就是要和他一起。起初，女生一直觉得新男友很好，可以不介意他所有的缺点。但现在，日子久了，女生开始嫌东嫌西，更糟糕的是，女生还明知前男友余情未了，女生还继续跟前男友联络，趁男友不在时和前男友通电话。因为女生现在和男友同居，但男友因为工作，所以只在周末回来，所以女生还吩咐前男友说，千万别再周末打电话给她。前男友真的痴痴爱着女生，甚至认为说，如果有一天女生和男友分手了，而回到了这前男友的身边，这男生还真的愿意要回这女生。。。。。
第三∶
今天我的dear突然打电话来，在电话里头痛哭，告诉我说原来他还爱着她。。。。他和她曾经在一起很久了，但间中一直分分合合，最后，终于狠心分手了。后来，今天他才告诉我说，其实，之前是他提出分手的，原因是因为当女生今大学时，成绩一直不好，男生认为是他害了她，而且男生也希望女生变得更勇敢面对生活，更独立些，男生因此而狠心跟女生分手。当初的想法就是要让她变好。终于，现在女生成绩也不错了，思想也变得成熟了很多，但同时，她也有了一位要好的男友。男生知道此事后，很伤心很伤心，因为他从来就没有放弃她，他一心想让女生变得 更勇敢，更成熟，但如今，他的目的达成了，可是一直被蒙在谷里的女生却有了一位要好的男生。终于，男生也对女生说出了当初的原因，但被丢下的，就是一句“你很自私”。男生一直怨自己，认为自己真的很错，自做聪明的选了他认为是最对的一条路，但如今，目的达成了，可是在她身边照顾她的男生，不再是他了。。。。
以上的故事都是真人真事，都是身边朋友的故事。
爱情，真的没有谁对谁错。。。。。。。
第一:
有个女生，爱上了一个不该爱的人。她爱上了一个原本很不错的男生，但后来学会赌博而迷上了赌博，成了赌徒。曾经女生真的很爱他，为了帮他渡过难关而到处向人借钱，只为了让他还渡过难关。她甚至利用了另一个对她好的男生，向他借钱后瞒着那男生去为男友还债。可惜她男友从不珍惜，依然烂赌成性，甚至还让女生成了向大耳窿借债的债主，让女生活在生不如死的生活。女生从来不敢告诉家人，朋友，自己一个人默默承受这一切。可恶的男友，还一而再的威胁女生说，如果不帮他，他就会告诉女生的家人说女生到处欠债，这男生真的有够贱！女生的朋友开始发觉女生有心事，终于有一天，女生将所有事情都说出来了，而朋友们都一直劝说要这女生尽快离开那男生。最后，这女生也真的离开了那男友，女生为男友所背负的大耳窿债也好彩的解决了。。。。
第二∶
有个女生，本来拥有一个四年感情的男友，但女生一直嫌男友学历低，没上进心，而最后女生与四年的男友分手了。不久后，女生与另一个男生开始了一段新的恋情。可那新男友也不见得拥有比前男友还好的条件，但女生就是要和他一起。起初，女生一直觉得新男友很好，可以不介意他所有的缺点。但现在，日子久了，女生开始嫌东嫌西，更糟糕的是，女生还明知前男友余情未了，女生还继续跟前男友联络，趁男友不在时和前男友通电话。因为女生现在和男友同居，但男友因为工作，所以只在周末回来，所以女生还吩咐前男友说，千万别再周末打电话给她。前男友真的痴痴爱着女生，甚至认为说，如果有一天女生和男友分手了，而回到了这前男友的身边，这男生还真的愿意要回这女生。。。。。
第三∶
今天我的dear突然打电话来，在电话里头痛哭，告诉我说原来他还爱着她。。。。他和她曾经在一起很久了，但间中一直分分合合，最后，终于狠心分手了。后来，今天他才告诉我说，其实，之前是他提出分手的，原因是因为当女生今大学时，成绩一直不好，男生认为是他害了她，而且男生也希望女生变得更勇敢面对生活，更独立些，男生因此而狠心跟女生分手。当初的想法就是要让她变好。终于，现在女生成绩也不错了，思想也变得成熟了很多，但同时，她也有了一位要好的男友。男生知道此事后，很伤心很伤心，因为他从来就没有放弃她，他一心想让女生变得 更勇敢，更成熟，但如今，他的目的达成了，可是一直被蒙在谷里的女生却有了一位要好的男生。终于，男生也对女生说出了当初的原因，但被丢下的，就是一句“你很自私”。男生一直怨自己，认为自己真的很错，自做聪明的选了他认为是最对的一条路，但如今，目的达成了，可是在她身边照顾她的男生，不再是他了。。。。
以上的故事都是真人真事，都是身边朋友的故事。
爱情，真的没有谁对谁错。。。。。。。
Thursday, May 14, 2009
闲来无事做的一妆
昨天下午，在家闷了整天，于是便听取了一个朋友的意见，他叫我不如就在家玩玩化妆，练习化妆计巧。。。翻翻我的化妆包，才发觉我有的颜色也不多，而且我也一直只善常画棕色的眼影。。。看来，是时候去为我的化妆包进新货了，呵呵。。。
以下就是我画出来的成果，才发觉照片中看不太清楚我的妆啊，但事实上是蛮浓的妆了，可是也不致于浓到要出席晚宴的妆啦。。。
最喜欢这一张了 ^^
12th May, 2009. Greenbox, Sg.Wang
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昨天，五月十二号，和其他四位朋友兼“邻居”到金河的GreenBox唱K。很开心因为唱K本来就是我最喜爱的娱乐，再说因为之前都很忙，所以也很少去唱了。昨天，我们从下午四点唱一直继续到晚上的buffet时段。因为只要多加个十块就可以继续buffet时段了，蛮值得的嘛。。。
唱歌之余，也拍了一些搞怪的照片:
由于这位先生每次都不拿“咪”唱歌，所以一定要逼逼他
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我和NIC
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Bear,Elvina,Me,Jeff :
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由于大家都毕业了，身边的这班朋友都一个一个开始分布到不同的地方了，有的回家乡，有的到可以发展的地方去。好舍不得，好讨厌这种感觉和情景，但都没办法，这些悲欢离合都是生活的一部分啊，只希望今后大家都一直保持联络咯。。。。
最近都一直在好好的珍惜这每一秒，每一刻。。。
Monday, May 11, 2009
Specially for Teacher See
Few days ago, teacher See gave me an assignment, asking to look for recipes online and then ask to email to her, but till now i haven't touch this assignment yet.... teacher See, jangan marah ya.... haha
Actually teacher See wants me to do this assignment because she is on her way to be a good wife in the future, that's y she wants to improve her cooking skill.
Well, since i am going to help her to find recipes, so might as well i post those recipes here too so that i can share with everyone that is on their way to be a good wife in the future too, hehe .....
Teacher See, this column is specially open for u, make sure u cook nice food for me next time ;P 
2nd day after finished exam
Today is the 2nd day after exam and it is a real boring day.
I woke up at around 10sth in the morning then just face pc until noon time and start to do some cleaning job inside the house. Mop the floor, clean the balcony, wash the bathroom, wash the aquarium..... It was an enjoyable cleaning job actually, i love do housework when there is no one at home, so that no one is there to disturb, hahahaha......
After the cleaning job, basically i stayed at home whole day to watch drama only. Wanted to go KLCC for the dinotrek and i actually managed to get RM 20.00 of syilling from my tabung duit, but the day is really hot and i felt lazy so never go out at all. Wow, ya, only realised, i never step out from my house at all today......
When come to night time, really felt very boring lar .... tomolo my frens wil be finish their final exam, hopefully there wil be plans for tomolo so that i wont be boring at home again.
One of my fren asked me " do u have any interest , so that u wont feel boring with your life "....i answered him " my interest all need money, i like to go shopping, i like to go bookstore to buy book tat i like, i like to go continue my piano lesson, i like to go travel, i like to go here and there, to see different things " and he said "aha, really expensive" thats y i answered " that's y, no money = no interest" ;P
Well, he actually make a good question, i think i am now lack of having to do things that i like to do, that's y i am feeling so boring with my life. From now on, i need to think of any inexpensive interest to go with ... haha....
I woke up at around 10sth in the morning then just face pc until noon time and start to do some cleaning job inside the house. Mop the floor, clean the balcony, wash the bathroom, wash the aquarium..... It was an enjoyable cleaning job actually, i love do housework when there is no one at home, so that no one is there to disturb, hahahaha......
After the cleaning job, basically i stayed at home whole day to watch drama only. Wanted to go KLCC for the dinotrek and i actually managed to get RM 20.00 of syilling from my tabung duit, but the day is really hot and i felt lazy so never go out at all. Wow, ya, only realised, i never step out from my house at all today......
When come to night time, really felt very boring lar .... tomolo my frens wil be finish their final exam, hopefully there wil be plans for tomolo so that i wont be boring at home again.
One of my fren asked me " do u have any interest , so that u wont feel boring with your life "....i answered him " my interest all need money, i like to go shopping, i like to go bookstore to buy book tat i like, i like to go continue my piano lesson, i like to go travel, i like to go here and there, to see different things " and he said "aha, really expensive" thats y i answered " that's y, no money = no interest" ;P
Well, he actually make a good question, i think i am now lack of having to do things that i like to do, that's y i am feeling so boring with my life. From now on, i need to think of any inexpensive interest to go with ... haha....
Sunday, May 10, 2009
1st day after finished final exam
Today is the 1st day of my holiday, after my final exam yesterday .....
Well, last night i slept at 10sth since i was really really tired after the exam yesterday. Then i woke up at around 11sth this morning. Actually i woke up at 5.30am cz i forgot to shut down my alarm and got wake up by the alarm, then i on my pc to play facebook for around 1 hour and then went back to continue my sleeping ... haha..... i sleep until around 11sth but then stil wan to lay on the bed, i miss my bed so much, been not lying on it for around one week already....
After tat, i went to take lunch with xiong and mika, and also my housemate yy, we went to eat mixed rice at the store nearby. Then, me and yy went to the canteen to buy teh ice, we are so addicted to canteen's teh ice, dunno y ... haha, really addicted, not onli me and yy, even another housemate sy also addicted to it ..... basically, canteen already earned alot of money from my house.
After everything , it was around 2sth already and i was sitting in front of the pc, thinking whether wan to go out today, since i really feel wan to go to kinokuniya. But then, suddenly my fren KL said that wil come find me for a drink at 4pm, so i went to take bath and get prepared. But after i wear nicely and did some slight make up, he suddenly say that to come find me tonight... sigh ... so, no choice, i just stay at home and msn with few frens and i even tell my fren tat someone "put aeroplane" on me... and mayb he wan to revenge cz before tat i always "put aeroplane" on him, haha........
Then, finally i decided to go out to KLCC. I went out at 5pm and went to repair my shoe before going to KLCC and i left the shoe there, but then the person asked me to come back at 7pm cz scare that he might not be there after 7pm, so i actually have onli 1 hour of time to stay at KLCC.
When i reached KLCC, the 1st place i go was kinokuniya, a bookstore inside KLCC, a place tat i wanted to come so long time d and stil dun have the chance. Finally i have the chance to come visit today... i already forgotten when was my last visit to kinokuniya, haha..... actually, wanted to stay there and read some book, but to my surprise, there are so many ppl inside kinokuniya. Yup, mayb because today is public holiday for wesak day. I went in and just slightly look at few books onli and i didn't stay there to read, because really a lot of ppl.
After that, i went to the art gallery to see some art. I like to go places like this, i enjoy art, although sometime i dun really get the meaning behind the art, i stil enjoy looking at art, and try to feel wats the story behind. This is the second time i went in to the art gallery at KLCC, somemore it is free admission, tats y, i like to go KLCC art gallery, hahahahahaha ....
Well, the art showing at art gallery was the art from "Eng Tay" who is a Malaysian born and New York based artist. It was all about prints, paintings, sculptures, marquettes and hand-painted ceramic work. The main story from his art is all about the tender moments of love, togetherness and camaraderie (which is familiarity and trust between frens). Too bad tat i cant take photo inside, but also lucky that i found one of his website on the net and there are few of his works on the website. If u are interested, u can check it out at http://www.tapir.com/home.html
Of all of his work, there is one work tat really touched my heart. Is a sculptur name " precious moment" which is a moment a mum playing with her children. Yup, again, i cant take picture of it during the visit just now but i found his work on the website above and below is the picture of the "precious moment" sculpture :
Sweet right? and is true tat this is always the precious moment, the moment to be together with family is always the precious moment. Miss my family suddenly and really wish my mum to have a happy mother's day. Sorry tat i couldn't back home, but i really wish tat my mum wil stil have a happy mother's day and be happy always.
Besides the art, there is one meaningful quote from the artist. He says that " The place that one belong to is very important. What is inside your heart you cant change no matter where you are. You are always from that place". The first thing that came into my mind is family, yes, there is the place tat i belong to and no matter how much i changed inside my heart or how much i changed in my life, i am always from there. Family is always there for me and they are really precious to me.
After the visit to the art gallery, i then went to Sasa to buy some cosmetic accessories. I bought a foundation sponge, eyelash curler rubber, a so called "eye brow knife " ( cz i dunno wat it suppose to call) and 3 pieces of eye mask. This eye mask was not in my shopping list today, but then the promoter keep promote it since got sales, so end up my heart also agreed with the promoter and buy it. Total up is RM34.60 but to my surprise, i only have around RM40 in my purse and i nearly have no money to back from KLCC, haha.... and now i have no cash with me at all, since i do not have ATM card of the stealing case happened, and tats y i couldnt get any cash now until my visit to the bank to withdraw money.
Since i do not have cash anymore and is already around 7pm, i left KLCC and went back to get my repaired shoe before i back home. At around 8pm, i went out to have dinner with my hometown fren, which is KL, Bo Zi, Taufu and one of their fren Tony. Really long time never see them and felt happy to have dinner together cz talked alot and realised that, there are really a lot of gals from my hometown already get married. Wow ... a lot of them already get married and some even have babies and me, i am stil a single lady here.... i think i should really be more hardworking to look for my mr.right, haha...... Ms. Sylvia, see ..... so many gals from our hometown already got married, so must work hard with me ya, dun forget tat u promise to bring guy back from taiwan during ur visit to taiwan, and also find a good temple to pray hard, haha.....
After the dinner, i went to my fren's house a while and then back home.
Oh ya, today went to KLCC, i came across with the petrosains dinotrek. I wanted to visit this dinotrek very much , and is not so expensive too, adult admission fee is only Rm6.00. I actually thougt wan to go tomolo since i have no other plan tomolo, but too bad tat i dun have cash anymore and the bank is not open tomolo... tats y, sigh .... i think i can only stay at home for the whole day tomolo..... anyway, i really wan to make a visit one day for this petrosains dinotrek, i love dinosaurs alot, so i really need to visit them one time, haha... i remembered that during my childhood, there are few dinosaurs exhibition too and my parents always like to bring us for the exhibition and i am so in love with them. I love something that is mysterious and has history, and i think, this is y i feel so interested with dinosaurs, since they are really a mystery to me, aha.... Also, since i was a kid, my parents always buy dinosaur cartoon for me, oh ... i miss those cartoons very much now.....
Brochure for petrosains dinotrek :P
Well, this is my day today, and no plan for tomolo yet, hope that i can have another fulfilled day tomolo.
Wish everyone of you have a nice day too since tomolo is a holiday =) (opps, but not a holiday to ms.sylvia =p )
Also, wish all mothers happy mother's day ^^
Well, last night i slept at 10sth since i was really really tired after the exam yesterday. Then i woke up at around 11sth this morning. Actually i woke up at 5.30am cz i forgot to shut down my alarm and got wake up by the alarm, then i on my pc to play facebook for around 1 hour and then went back to continue my sleeping ... haha..... i sleep until around 11sth but then stil wan to lay on the bed, i miss my bed so much, been not lying on it for around one week already....
After tat, i went to take lunch with xiong and mika, and also my housemate yy, we went to eat mixed rice at the store nearby. Then, me and yy went to the canteen to buy teh ice, we are so addicted to canteen's teh ice, dunno y ... haha, really addicted, not onli me and yy, even another housemate sy also addicted to it ..... basically, canteen already earned alot of money from my house.
After everything , it was around 2sth already and i was sitting in front of the pc, thinking whether wan to go out today, since i really feel wan to go to kinokuniya. But then, suddenly my fren KL said that wil come find me for a drink at 4pm, so i went to take bath and get prepared. But after i wear nicely and did some slight make up, he suddenly say that to come find me tonight... sigh ... so, no choice, i just stay at home and msn with few frens and i even tell my fren tat someone "put aeroplane" on me... and mayb he wan to revenge cz before tat i always "put aeroplane" on him, haha........
Then, finally i decided to go out to KLCC. I went out at 5pm and went to repair my shoe before going to KLCC and i left the shoe there, but then the person asked me to come back at 7pm cz scare that he might not be there after 7pm, so i actually have onli 1 hour of time to stay at KLCC.
When i reached KLCC, the 1st place i go was kinokuniya, a bookstore inside KLCC, a place tat i wanted to come so long time d and stil dun have the chance. Finally i have the chance to come visit today... i already forgotten when was my last visit to kinokuniya, haha..... actually, wanted to stay there and read some book, but to my surprise, there are so many ppl inside kinokuniya. Yup, mayb because today is public holiday for wesak day. I went in and just slightly look at few books onli and i didn't stay there to read, because really a lot of ppl.
After that, i went to the art gallery to see some art. I like to go places like this, i enjoy art, although sometime i dun really get the meaning behind the art, i stil enjoy looking at art, and try to feel wats the story behind. This is the second time i went in to the art gallery at KLCC, somemore it is free admission, tats y, i like to go KLCC art gallery, hahahahahaha ....
Well, the art showing at art gallery was the art from "Eng Tay" who is a Malaysian born and New York based artist. It was all about prints, paintings, sculptures, marquettes and hand-painted ceramic work. The main story from his art is all about the tender moments of love, togetherness and camaraderie (which is familiarity and trust between frens). Too bad tat i cant take photo inside, but also lucky that i found one of his website on the net and there are few of his works on the website. If u are interested, u can check it out at http://www.tapir.com/home.html
Of all of his work, there is one work tat really touched my heart. Is a sculptur name " precious moment" which is a moment a mum playing with her children. Yup, again, i cant take picture of it during the visit just now but i found his work on the website above and below is the picture of the "precious moment" sculpture :
Sweet right? and is true tat this is always the precious moment, the moment to be together with family is always the precious moment. Miss my family suddenly and really wish my mum to have a happy mother's day. Sorry tat i couldn't back home, but i really wish tat my mum wil stil have a happy mother's day and be happy always.
Besides the art, there is one meaningful quote from the artist. He says that " The place that one belong to is very important. What is inside your heart you cant change no matter where you are. You are always from that place". The first thing that came into my mind is family, yes, there is the place tat i belong to and no matter how much i changed inside my heart or how much i changed in my life, i am always from there. Family is always there for me and they are really precious to me.
After the visit to the art gallery, i then went to Sasa to buy some cosmetic accessories. I bought a foundation sponge, eyelash curler rubber, a so called "eye brow knife " ( cz i dunno wat it suppose to call) and 3 pieces of eye mask. This eye mask was not in my shopping list today, but then the promoter keep promote it since got sales, so end up my heart also agreed with the promoter and buy it. Total up is RM34.60 but to my surprise, i only have around RM40 in my purse and i nearly have no money to back from KLCC, haha.... and now i have no cash with me at all, since i do not have ATM card of the stealing case happened, and tats y i couldnt get any cash now until my visit to the bank to withdraw money.
Since i do not have cash anymore and is already around 7pm, i left KLCC and went back to get my repaired shoe before i back home. At around 8pm, i went out to have dinner with my hometown fren, which is KL, Bo Zi, Taufu and one of their fren Tony. Really long time never see them and felt happy to have dinner together cz talked alot and realised that, there are really a lot of gals from my hometown already get married. Wow ... a lot of them already get married and some even have babies and me, i am stil a single lady here.... i think i should really be more hardworking to look for my mr.right, haha...... Ms. Sylvia, see ..... so many gals from our hometown already got married, so must work hard with me ya, dun forget tat u promise to bring guy back from taiwan during ur visit to taiwan, and also find a good temple to pray hard, haha.....
After the dinner, i went to my fren's house a while and then back home.
Oh ya, today went to KLCC, i came across with the petrosains dinotrek. I wanted to visit this dinotrek very much , and is not so expensive too, adult admission fee is only Rm6.00. I actually thougt wan to go tomolo since i have no other plan tomolo, but too bad tat i dun have cash anymore and the bank is not open tomolo... tats y, sigh .... i think i can only stay at home for the whole day tomolo..... anyway, i really wan to make a visit one day for this petrosains dinotrek, i love dinosaurs alot, so i really need to visit them one time, haha... i remembered that during my childhood, there are few dinosaurs exhibition too and my parents always like to bring us for the exhibition and i am so in love with them. I love something that is mysterious and has history, and i think, this is y i feel so interested with dinosaurs, since they are really a mystery to me, aha.... Also, since i was a kid, my parents always buy dinosaur cartoon for me, oh ... i miss those cartoons very much now.....
Brochure for petrosains dinotrek :P
Well, this is my day today, and no plan for tomolo yet, hope that i can have another fulfilled day tomolo.
Wish everyone of you have a nice day too since tomolo is a holiday =) (opps, but not a holiday to ms.sylvia =p )
Also, wish all mothers happy mother's day ^^
Conclusion on my 4 years of degree life
Finally, i had finished all my final papers, and yes, it was really a tiring and also a disappointed journey. Not onli wat happpened during the 1st paper, also, the next few exam paper, everything was not well, and i believe the result wil be not well too .....
Finally finish my 4 years of degree life (hopefully, since ... at tis moment, i also cant say whether i can grad by this sem onot because i am really not confident to pass my papers at all). What can i conclude for this four years is, i am really feeling disappointed with myself. Dunno y, i really couldnt get a good result, i believe tat, this not onli make myself disappointed, it disappointed my parents too, since i think they are putting high hope on their children, wishing tat their children can do better in everthing. Somemore, i have no confident tat i can grad by this sem, this really make me feel nervous when think about it, i tried to persuade myself very hard for not to think about it, but at time, it really come to my mind and i cant stop thinking.
Well, wat can i do next if i really grad? Find a job i think... before tat i was thinking to take master, but now i am really disappointed with myself, so better find a job for myself. But, i felt no confident at all.... dad said tat he wil try to ask around whether is there any job for me and asked for my result, i felt shameful with my result, i felt shameful to make my dad shameful as well if he tells ppl hows my result when trying to ask job for me.
Actually, i would prefer to find a job myself, cz i really dun wan to make my dad so shameful, but, at the same time, i dun think is good to just reject my dad's idea, since wat he did is for my own good too ... sigh ...... i really disappointed with myself anyway.
I dunno , mayb i am a perfectionist, but, not 100 % perfectionist, haha...... cz, i will only feel confident if something is perfect, otherwise, i will feel no confident at all, really no at all ..... like for now, i dun even have confident to go find job, just because my result is not perfect at all. I know tat the world is realistic and if u are not perfect, then no one wil look up on u, ppl might just look down on u, this is a realistic world and now, i am feeling scare to enter this realistic world.
Anyway, i need to brave myself and be strong, no matter how ... i stil need to go on with my journey........ wish me luck ~~
Finally finish my 4 years of degree life (hopefully, since ... at tis moment, i also cant say whether i can grad by this sem onot because i am really not confident to pass my papers at all). What can i conclude for this four years is, i am really feeling disappointed with myself. Dunno y, i really couldnt get a good result, i believe tat, this not onli make myself disappointed, it disappointed my parents too, since i think they are putting high hope on their children, wishing tat their children can do better in everthing. Somemore, i have no confident tat i can grad by this sem, this really make me feel nervous when think about it, i tried to persuade myself very hard for not to think about it, but at time, it really come to my mind and i cant stop thinking.
Well, wat can i do next if i really grad? Find a job i think... before tat i was thinking to take master, but now i am really disappointed with myself, so better find a job for myself. But, i felt no confident at all.... dad said tat he wil try to ask around whether is there any job for me and asked for my result, i felt shameful with my result, i felt shameful to make my dad shameful as well if he tells ppl hows my result when trying to ask job for me.
Actually, i would prefer to find a job myself, cz i really dun wan to make my dad so shameful, but, at the same time, i dun think is good to just reject my dad's idea, since wat he did is for my own good too ... sigh ...... i really disappointed with myself anyway.
I dunno , mayb i am a perfectionist, but, not 100 % perfectionist, haha...... cz, i will only feel confident if something is perfect, otherwise, i will feel no confident at all, really no at all ..... like for now, i dun even have confident to go find job, just because my result is not perfect at all. I know tat the world is realistic and if u are not perfect, then no one wil look up on u, ppl might just look down on u, this is a realistic world and now, i am feeling scare to enter this realistic world.
Anyway, i need to brave myself and be strong, no matter how ... i stil need to go on with my journey........ wish me luck ~~
To Mr.NoName
Dear Mr.No Name,
I guess u are on the flight now, since u said tat ur flight wil be at 1am.... I hope tat u wil have a safe flight. Even though you never do wat u promised to me before and i also have nothing to say for that, since, its so complicated...... I myself also dunno wat i m i thinking and wat i wan.
Anyway, i wish tat u wil do wat u promised to do four months later, i wish tat everything wil come true and be fine. I dunno wat will happen in the future but at least this is wat i wish at this moment.
Hope u have a safe flight and reach safe, good night.
Saturday, May 2, 2009
I am so scare right now ...
Today is the first day of my final exam, but then things really doesn't goes well....
I did my revision last night until 4am and then went to sleep and set my alarm to be 6am, 6.30am and 7am.... cz i tot to wake up in the morning to do final revision before going to exam. But mayb i am too tired recently until couldn't hear the alarm at all. Until when i woke up this morning, is already 9.20am, and my exam started at 9am. I was shocked, really scared, dunno wat to do and quickly run to uni hopefully to sit the exam on time, because according to the rules, if we are late for 30min during the exam then we are not eligible to sit for the exam and need to repeat this subject for next year. I reached there at 9.40am and supposed to be late but i beg the lecturer to let me sit for the exam and at last, he agreed, i was really grateful to him, otherwise, i have no hope to graduate at all.
The paper end at 11am, i sat at 9.40am and i was stil in a shock condition, i am scare and shivering all the time. Seeing the time passed minutes to minutes, my heart really beating fast and even gastric. I really too worry until i couldn't think of anything. Supposingly the question not very hard and i can do it, but then i am really too worry until i mess up everything inside my mind and at last, i really couldn't write out anything that can contribute marks for my exam.
I felt disappointed as i studied hard for this subject but then end up like this. I studied hard on this first subject cz i know very well on myself that, each exam period, i will never get the best result for the first paper, because i will be very nervous for the first paper, stress until i really cannot do it well, that's well i know myself very well that i will never do well in the first paper. I tried hard to cope with it, tried hard to not to make myself so nervous and be calm, but still cant.
I thought it is ok if i cannot pass this subject because i still have another hope for the supplymentary paper. So after the exam, i went to the office lobby to look for supp paper's time table, to my surprise, no time table for supp paper at all, then only one things come to my mind "is there still a supp paper for us" ? Because, the uni examination system did changed before, i am not sure start from which year, the new batch of students tat come in will no longer have supp paper anymore. If they fail in the paper, they wil need to repeat it on the next sem. This subject is a elective subject for me, and is combined with some other course's junior. So, what m i worry now is that, will it be because of this, we are actually having no more supp paper now ?
I really have no hope at the moment. If there is no supp paper for this subject, then i will not be graduating this sem. I will make my family disappointed, but what can i do now ? I feel sad when think that i cant graduate this sem, i feel worry and nervous when think that i have make my family disappointed.
I am really losing hope now ... four more papers ahead, but i dunno how to face everything anymore ~~~
I did my revision last night until 4am and then went to sleep and set my alarm to be 6am, 6.30am and 7am.... cz i tot to wake up in the morning to do final revision before going to exam. But mayb i am too tired recently until couldn't hear the alarm at all. Until when i woke up this morning, is already 9.20am, and my exam started at 9am. I was shocked, really scared, dunno wat to do and quickly run to uni hopefully to sit the exam on time, because according to the rules, if we are late for 30min during the exam then we are not eligible to sit for the exam and need to repeat this subject for next year. I reached there at 9.40am and supposed to be late but i beg the lecturer to let me sit for the exam and at last, he agreed, i was really grateful to him, otherwise, i have no hope to graduate at all.
The paper end at 11am, i sat at 9.40am and i was stil in a shock condition, i am scare and shivering all the time. Seeing the time passed minutes to minutes, my heart really beating fast and even gastric. I really too worry until i couldn't think of anything. Supposingly the question not very hard and i can do it, but then i am really too worry until i mess up everything inside my mind and at last, i really couldn't write out anything that can contribute marks for my exam.
I felt disappointed as i studied hard for this subject but then end up like this. I studied hard on this first subject cz i know very well on myself that, each exam period, i will never get the best result for the first paper, because i will be very nervous for the first paper, stress until i really cannot do it well, that's well i know myself very well that i will never do well in the first paper. I tried hard to cope with it, tried hard to not to make myself so nervous and be calm, but still cant.
I thought it is ok if i cannot pass this subject because i still have another hope for the supplymentary paper. So after the exam, i went to the office lobby to look for supp paper's time table, to my surprise, no time table for supp paper at all, then only one things come to my mind "is there still a supp paper for us" ? Because, the uni examination system did changed before, i am not sure start from which year, the new batch of students tat come in will no longer have supp paper anymore. If they fail in the paper, they wil need to repeat it on the next sem. This subject is a elective subject for me, and is combined with some other course's junior. So, what m i worry now is that, will it be because of this, we are actually having no more supp paper now ?
I really have no hope at the moment. If there is no supp paper for this subject, then i will not be graduating this sem. I will make my family disappointed, but what can i do now ? I feel sad when think that i cant graduate this sem, i feel worry and nervous when think that i have make my family disappointed.
I am really losing hope now ... four more papers ahead, but i dunno how to face everything anymore ~~~
Thursday, April 30, 2009
30/4/09 , 3.58am
刚与朋友喝完茶回来，糟糕！竟然吃了两串“luk luk”和一个虾肉汉堡再来一杯Teh Tarik。。。糟啦！今天上的俞家班又浪费了啦。吼~再这样下去，怎样减肥？？不过，我今天还没吃晚餐，就姑且的拿“还没吃晚餐”为理由吧 =p
最讨厌考试时期，因为，一来睡眠不定时，导致用餐也不定时。二来读书很吃脑力，导致容易感到肚子饿，哎。。。
不过，刚才的“温书中场休息”aka 喝茶时间也蛮愉快的，况且我也很久都没三更半夜出来喝茶了。曾经，我是个很爱外出的女生，凡是有节目或喝茶的，我都一定奉陪。但，不知甚么时候，什么事情，导致我渐渐的很少出外，更少去喝半夜茶了。朋友叫到，我都一一的退。为甚么这样？我也不知道。。也许，人老了吧，哈哈！
对了，刚才和朋友谈的很愉快，一切都因为我叫了个虾肉汉堡开始。因为我是一个不敢/不喜欢乱吃/尝试新的食物。所以当我叫了我第一次尝试的虾肉汉堡，米高就大惊了一下，然后话题就陆续而来。就开始谈到究竟我不吃什么。对我而言，于其你问我不吃什么，倒不如问我吃什么，这样我会比较容易回答。哈哈，总之是奇奇怪怪的，有四只脚的，或是大过我的东西，我都会害怕。那我都吃什么呢？鸡，海鲜（但也有不吃的），鸭（某些煮法的），猪（只是偶尔想吃猪肉粉时才吃，多数时候都不吃因为不喜欢猪的味道）。。。其余的菜类或谷类或什么的，只要不是味道怪怪的，只要是我熟悉的，我都会吃吧。
米高还要很坏的想想，我们的下一餐海鲜大餐就是偏要叫那些我不吃的海鲜，例如海参的。。。然后，我说吃海鲜时我也会很少吃螃蟹和虾，因为要剥壳，好麻烦哦，所以我都很少会吃的。。。结果，bear就说，那以后我的海鲜大餐是要special order的，例如，螃蟹就叫蟹柳吃，虾肉就叫虾丸吃，还蛮好笑的，从来没想过海鲜也可以来个这样的配搭，哈哈。。
想想，我以前都不认为自己很偏食，现在才发觉我是一个超级无敌的偏食王，哈哈！！
朋友都说，以后我的老公和孩子都很可怜，因为没机会尝试天下美食，也不会特地去煮一些我不爱吃的东西。但，我认为还好吧，我是不会阻止他们去品尝我所谓的怪食啊，只要他们想吃的，他们都可以去吃啊，未来老公于孩子们，放心吧，我是绝对不会阻止你们，最多我在一旁陪着，看着你们吃而已，哈哈。所以啊，我未来老公不可是和我一样，什么都不吃的人，要不然，我的孩子就真的好惨~~~
哦。。好困了，但不行，我一定要再读个两个小时才能睡！加油了！！
最讨厌考试时期，因为，一来睡眠不定时，导致用餐也不定时。二来读书很吃脑力，导致容易感到肚子饿，哎。。。
不过，刚才的“温书中场休息”aka 喝茶时间也蛮愉快的，况且我也很久都没三更半夜出来喝茶了。曾经，我是个很爱外出的女生，凡是有节目或喝茶的，我都一定奉陪。但，不知甚么时候，什么事情，导致我渐渐的很少出外，更少去喝半夜茶了。朋友叫到，我都一一的退。为甚么这样？我也不知道。。也许，人老了吧，哈哈！
对了，刚才和朋友谈的很愉快，一切都因为我叫了个虾肉汉堡开始。因为我是一个不敢/不喜欢乱吃/尝试新的食物。所以当我叫了我第一次尝试的虾肉汉堡，米高就大惊了一下，然后话题就陆续而来。就开始谈到究竟我不吃什么。对我而言，于其你问我不吃什么，倒不如问我吃什么，这样我会比较容易回答。哈哈，总之是奇奇怪怪的，有四只脚的，或是大过我的东西，我都会害怕。那我都吃什么呢？鸡，海鲜（但也有不吃的），鸭（某些煮法的），猪（只是偶尔想吃猪肉粉时才吃，多数时候都不吃因为不喜欢猪的味道）。。。其余的菜类或谷类或什么的，只要不是味道怪怪的，只要是我熟悉的，我都会吃吧。
米高还要很坏的想想，我们的下一餐海鲜大餐就是偏要叫那些我不吃的海鲜，例如海参的。。。然后，我说吃海鲜时我也会很少吃螃蟹和虾，因为要剥壳，好麻烦哦，所以我都很少会吃的。。。结果，bear就说，那以后我的海鲜大餐是要special order的，例如，螃蟹就叫蟹柳吃，虾肉就叫虾丸吃，还蛮好笑的，从来没想过海鲜也可以来个这样的配搭，哈哈。。
想想，我以前都不认为自己很偏食，现在才发觉我是一个超级无敌的偏食王，哈哈！！
朋友都说，以后我的老公和孩子都很可怜，因为没机会尝试天下美食，也不会特地去煮一些我不爱吃的东西。但，我认为还好吧，我是不会阻止他们去品尝我所谓的怪食啊，只要他们想吃的，他们都可以去吃啊，未来老公于孩子们，放心吧，我是绝对不会阻止你们，最多我在一旁陪着，看着你们吃而已，哈哈。所以啊，我未来老公不可是和我一样，什么都不吃的人，要不然，我的孩子就真的好惨~~~
哦。。好困了，但不行，我一定要再读个两个小时才能睡！加油了！！
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
容忍。。。。真的是有限度的
今天，NoName 终于打电话给我了，就在上午，电话突然响起。但，我没接，都已经让我等了两，三天，就在我完全想放弃时，他才突然来电，当时的心情根本就不想听到任何和他有关的消息。所以就没接了。。。但后来，却又想知道他到底想对我说什么，于是我便讯息他问他是否刚打来？
哪知，他整天都没有任何回应，我等也等到累了。直到晚上十点多他才送一封forward msg 给我。于是我问他最近怎样，回马见家人肯定很开心，他却回我一封“想你咯”。我再回他说，“哈哈~~有吗~~？那这几天都在做什么?" 他又完全没回复了。
吼！我好累哦。。。一而再的容忍他对我的忽冷忽热，我真的忍到累了。真的真的不知道他到底在想什么？有时在想，其实这种性格的他，是不是根本就不适合我？我是不是应该对他放手了？以免错过更好的人？
NoName, 你可以坦坦白白，实实在在的告述我你到底心里在想什么？你到底想怎样？请尽快解决我的疑问好吗？好让我知道，我该不该再等下去？？
容忍，真的有限度的，别一而再的靠验我的忍耐，总有一天我会忍无可忍而退步离开~~
哪知，他整天都没有任何回应，我等也等到累了。直到晚上十点多他才送一封forward msg 给我。于是我问他最近怎样，回马见家人肯定很开心，他却回我一封“想你咯”。我再回他说，“哈哈~~有吗~~？那这几天都在做什么?" 他又完全没回复了。
吼！我好累哦。。。一而再的容忍他对我的忽冷忽热，我真的忍到累了。真的真的不知道他到底在想什么？有时在想，其实这种性格的他，是不是根本就不适合我？我是不是应该对他放手了？以免错过更好的人？
NoName, 你可以坦坦白白，实实在在的告述我你到底心里在想什么？你到底想怎样？请尽快解决我的疑问好吗？好让我知道，我该不该再等下去？？
容忍，真的有限度的，别一而再的靠验我的忍耐，总有一天我会忍无可忍而退步离开~~
29-04-09, 4.05am
Just came back from Mc.D with frens... we went to Mc.D last night at 11pm sth until 3am sth and just arrived home not long ago. Went there with fren to study for our final exam.
Well, hows my progress so far? not really good actually, as my progress is quite slow..... stil couldn't have the mood to study. Y ? i also not sure, at first i was thinking mayb i dun have the "study mood" in my own room, tats y i wish to have a new environtment to study, but where else to go ? i dun feel wan to go to the library, just because, i feel so lazy to walk out from house as well, hahahaha......
My first paper wil be on 2nd of May, then 4th of May, 7th of May and 8th of May (which will be two subjects on this day). Most suffering is that, i need to have three subjects continously on two days, which is 7th and 8th of May.... phew.... feel so stress when think about it. I just wish tat everything wil goes smoothly then after this exam, i wil be free and can do things tat i like to do !! Yeah ~~~
Gambatte gambatte !! Actually felt great to study at Mc.D just now, at least, there has air con, there has yummy yummy food and also there has a kid's land, which comfortable floor. Why i say so ? because one of my fren went in to study at 1st, went into the kid's land and sit on the soft floor.... after tat, i also joined in and realised that there is quite a comfortable place to study too, luckily no one chase us out as we are far out from the age of "kid" already and that's actually a small play ground for the kids, hehe .... Well, you might try it out next time to study inside the kid's wonderland. But make sure u dun scare the kid, hehe .....
This is our final semester and after this, we have no more chance to study together for final exam anymore. Suddenly memories came out for how did i go thru my study weeks for this four years of studies. During the first year, we stil used to go to the uni study room to study, since there is air con too and there are many smart student studying there, so that we can ask for their help if we need help. But, as usual, normally will study more harder during the mid night time, i also dunno y, mayb already used to it since secondary school, to study very late at night. Anyway, it was really a memorable time where we can do revision with frens, chit chat with frens when feel tired, nap inside the study room when feel sleepy, went to "yam ca" after finish study at very late at night ... I would say, tat's wat we called " young " . Imagine after step into the working life, i believe this might not be happen all the time anymore.
During the 2nd/3rd year of studies, i used to study at my fren's house which near my house. We used to call there as HQ since inside the house itself, there are already 3 person who is at the same course, thats y, there is always our gathering place since they have the majorities there. Well, although there dun have air con, dun have yummy yummy food, but there is always bed awaiting you to lie on to study, and tats y it ended up always fall asleep than to study. What most unforgattble is that always a day before exam, we will really burn the mid night oil and be very co-operative so that we take turns to nap and then take turns to wake up to continue study. At least, it wont be boring to study there, since there are frens around to study together with me =)
Heading to the end of my uni life, i feel happy and at the same time, i feel a bit down, because, time passed so fast and after this, all frens will then either back to their hometown or go to somewhere to work. I appreciate every frens that i had during this 4 years of studies, and i really wish that we can keep in touch forever.
Nowadays, there is one issue that we have not yet settle, that is where to go for our grad trip? I had a grad trip with another gang of the uni frens but not yet have any planning for grad trip for this gang of fren tat i always stick with ... well, partly because everyone of us wanted to go different places, and some even wan to go oversea. For my financial status now, i dun think i can go oversea with them, anyway, i wish that we can really have a memorable grad trip together, also, i wish that there stil be a chance for us to go traveling together even after we come out to work. Anyway, i believe that, as long as we keep in touch often and maintain our friendship, there surely be a chance, right ? = )
Bye uni in 2 weeks time, but frens, NEVER say good bye between us, keep in touch ya = )
Good luck and all the best to my frens and all who are having exam at the moment, gambatte !!
Well, hows my progress so far? not really good actually, as my progress is quite slow..... stil couldn't have the mood to study. Y ? i also not sure, at first i was thinking mayb i dun have the "study mood" in my own room, tats y i wish to have a new environtment to study, but where else to go ? i dun feel wan to go to the library, just because, i feel so lazy to walk out from house as well, hahahaha......
My first paper wil be on 2nd of May, then 4th of May, 7th of May and 8th of May (which will be two subjects on this day). Most suffering is that, i need to have three subjects continously on two days, which is 7th and 8th of May.... phew.... feel so stress when think about it. I just wish tat everything wil goes smoothly then after this exam, i wil be free and can do things tat i like to do !! Yeah ~~~
Gambatte gambatte !! Actually felt great to study at Mc.D just now, at least, there has air con, there has yummy yummy food and also there has a kid's land, which comfortable floor. Why i say so ? because one of my fren went in to study at 1st, went into the kid's land and sit on the soft floor.... after tat, i also joined in and realised that there is quite a comfortable place to study too, luckily no one chase us out as we are far out from the age of "kid" already and that's actually a small play ground for the kids, hehe .... Well, you might try it out next time to study inside the kid's wonderland. But make sure u dun scare the kid, hehe .....
This is our final semester and after this, we have no more chance to study together for final exam anymore. Suddenly memories came out for how did i go thru my study weeks for this four years of studies. During the first year, we stil used to go to the uni study room to study, since there is air con too and there are many smart student studying there, so that we can ask for their help if we need help. But, as usual, normally will study more harder during the mid night time, i also dunno y, mayb already used to it since secondary school, to study very late at night. Anyway, it was really a memorable time where we can do revision with frens, chit chat with frens when feel tired, nap inside the study room when feel sleepy, went to "yam ca" after finish study at very late at night ... I would say, tat's wat we called " young " . Imagine after step into the working life, i believe this might not be happen all the time anymore.
During the 2nd/3rd year of studies, i used to study at my fren's house which near my house. We used to call there as HQ since inside the house itself, there are already 3 person who is at the same course, thats y, there is always our gathering place since they have the majorities there. Well, although there dun have air con, dun have yummy yummy food, but there is always bed awaiting you to lie on to study, and tats y it ended up always fall asleep than to study. What most unforgattble is that always a day before exam, we will really burn the mid night oil and be very co-operative so that we take turns to nap and then take turns to wake up to continue study. At least, it wont be boring to study there, since there are frens around to study together with me =)
Heading to the end of my uni life, i feel happy and at the same time, i feel a bit down, because, time passed so fast and after this, all frens will then either back to their hometown or go to somewhere to work. I appreciate every frens that i had during this 4 years of studies, and i really wish that we can keep in touch forever.
Nowadays, there is one issue that we have not yet settle, that is where to go for our grad trip? I had a grad trip with another gang of the uni frens but not yet have any planning for grad trip for this gang of fren tat i always stick with ... well, partly because everyone of us wanted to go different places, and some even wan to go oversea. For my financial status now, i dun think i can go oversea with them, anyway, i wish that we can really have a memorable grad trip together, also, i wish that there stil be a chance for us to go traveling together even after we come out to work. Anyway, i believe that, as long as we keep in touch often and maintain our friendship, there surely be a chance, right ? = )
Bye uni in 2 weeks time, but frens, NEVER say good bye between us, keep in touch ya = )
Good luck and all the best to my frens and all who are having exam at the moment, gambatte !!
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
New Target
Well, my target now is not gonna wait for Mr. Right to appear in my life anymore....
From today onward, my target is to concentrate and finish my final exam until 8th of May, after tat my target is to earn and save more money so that i can have trip with my babes on end of the year (hopefully we stil can plan that) and also to save money for an oversea trip with my lovely cousin....
Where should we go ?? We decided to look on where Air Asia destinations will be and suggested whether to go philipine or vietnam, since .... i dun think i have the money to go for europe countries or other high expenses countries yet... That's y, lets start with affordable country, hehe.... = )
Feel so happy to have this target now, lets work hard to realise it ! Ganbatte
From today onward, my target is to concentrate and finish my final exam until 8th of May, after tat my target is to earn and save more money so that i can have trip with my babes on end of the year (hopefully we stil can plan that) and also to save money for an oversea trip with my lovely cousin....
Where should we go ?? We decided to look on where Air Asia destinations will be and suggested whether to go philipine or vietnam, since .... i dun think i have the money to go for europe countries or other high expenses countries yet... That's y, lets start with affordable country, hehe.... = )
Feel so happy to have this target now, lets work hard to realise it ! Ganbatte
Monday, April 27, 2009
不再做笨女孩咯~~
Nothing much to update, since already decided that there is no point waiting for this mr.noname anymore..... Waited for two days but there is no single contact at all, what is in his mind? i don know, but wat i know is tat, guys are all very good in bull-shitting. They can said something that is so nice, so sweet, promise things that are so wonderful, but end up, they are so failure in doing action.
Chatted with my lovely cousin, we were in the same situation (I guess....), waiting for someone that we thought might be worth waiting for, but end up, there are endless disappointment. Maybe we are too naive in the world so called L-O-V-E. We tend to believe everything and tend to believe that one's heart is true and sincere, should we call us naive?? haha ......
Well, there is no big deal i think, is good to see clearly about someone, rather than to just being so stupid to go round and round inside his world, at least, know i can know who is worthy and who is not. Mayb this is the process that i need to go thru in order to find my Mr.Right.
To my lovely cousin, lets not be a naive girl anymore and i believe that, there will be a right guy out there waiting for us, Yeah ~~
Chatted with my lovely cousin, we were in the same situation (I guess....), waiting for someone that we thought might be worth waiting for, but end up, there are endless disappointment. Maybe we are too naive in the world so called L-O-V-E. We tend to believe everything and tend to believe that one's heart is true and sincere, should we call us naive?? haha ......
Well, there is no big deal i think, is good to see clearly about someone, rather than to just being so stupid to go round and round inside his world, at least, know i can know who is worthy and who is not. Mayb this is the process that i need to go thru in order to find my Mr.Right.
To my lovely cousin, lets not be a naive girl anymore and i believe that, there will be a right guy out there waiting for us, Yeah ~~
Monday, April 20, 2009
Yeah ! Finally everything end ............. with disappointment ( but at least feel so happy and relax now )
Finally i have finished my finale presentation for my four years or degree course..... Although, there are so much disappointment this morning during the presentation as my results of research seems to have nothing to deal with my research title... well, there is no point for me to think too much now, so just accept it and go on with my life ya ^^
Felt so so happy and relax today, because after so many weeks of busy life to rush for every assignments, thesis, and so on, finally everything come to an end today..... next, i will need to concentrate more on my final exam which will be on 2/4/7/8 of May...... All the best to everyone ^^
Muacks ..... XOXO
Felt so so happy and relax today, because after so many weeks of busy life to rush for every assignments, thesis, and so on, finally everything come to an end today..... next, i will need to concentrate more on my final exam which will be on 2/4/7/8 of May...... All the best to everyone ^^
Muacks ..... XOXO
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
15-4-2009, 5.22AM
Still rushing for my thesis at the moment .... oppss.... and suddenly rain heavily here .... the night was so quiet and really rain heavily outside which make me feel a little bit scary..
Still working hard for my thesis, but then, still no idea to make it perfect... suppose to pass up later, but then now i doubt whether can i pass up in time ?? Feeling a little down now, and feels like wan to give up everything.
Drank a cup of coffee, but it makes me feel even more sleepy ... @.@? .... even caffein also cant help me now. Oh no .... i am really feeling sleepy and blank in mind.....
Can i do it ? can i do it ?? I know no matter how i stil need to continue ! Ganbatte to me and everyone who is rushing thesis at the moment !
Monday, April 13, 2009
Thesis oh Thesis ~~~~
Been so stress recently cz need to rush up for the thesis, which suppose today i need to pass up to my supervisor to see whether is there anything to do for correction before the final submission, which is also this week, wednesday (15/4/09)..... OMG !!
Coming to the final year, final sem and even final week of my uni life... never expect that my life is still so stressful.. sigh.... thesis tis week, presentation next week, then final exam for 2 weeks later from now .....
Not that i dun wan to do my thesis, but then i really have no idea wat to write at all. Title of my thesis been changed for many times, after tat, wasted a lot of times to wait for machines and also materials. When the so called new and more hi-tech machine arrived, i din even have the chance to feel how hi-tech is the machine, then it breaks down.... wat the ..... sigh ...... Used up few weeks to polish my baby specimens, wanted to go for SEM at UM, went there, but do not have the EDX to scan the composition, which is the main aim why we went to UM to use its SEM. So.... end up, we have nothing, onli microscopic pictures that taken by optical microscope.......
Without anything, any end result ? what are we going to write huh ?? Looking at those pictures, seems like it means nothing, what to write ???
I am trying so hard to fall in love with those micrographs, but still have no feel and idea on what to write in my thesis... One of my fren said, i never give chance, thats y cannot fall in love, haha... funny him...
Feeling so stress at the moment, wishing that i could go out for a crazy night ........ Anyone there to help me out from this jail ?? Help ~~~~~~
Wednesday, March 4, 2009
高等人士 VS 低等人士 ??
今天塔巴士去上课，在巴士里面就遇到了三个人。。。。两男一女。
他们都是华人，两个男的是售票员，然后那女的不知是做什么的，只知道是他们的朋友（但感觉像是“亲蜜朋友”）
一上巴士，我就坐在那女生的后面，起初没什么的，只是觉得那女生很吵，因为她开“炸歌”很大声。过后，看到那两个售票员跟她很熟似的才知道他们是朋友。
渐渐的，看他们的举止，听他们的谈话，我就开始感到很不舒服。刚开始，我看到眼前的情景是，两个男生似乎想讨好那女生，而那女的，感觉就像个女皇，在那儿使唤两个男子。
然后，从他们的谈话中，都一直出现三字经，就连那女生，句句都是三字经，而且讲话粗声粗气的。我坐在他们的后面，我感到很尴尬，不知为甚么的，就觉得很尴尬，很不自在。
更糟糕的是，我过后才发觉，原来我不知不觉得摆了个臭脸，哈哈。。。。
我心里深处有种好像很看不起他们的感觉，我很茅盾的想，究竟是我太高档了？还是这种感觉是正常的？
他们都是华人，两个男的是售票员，然后那女的不知是做什么的，只知道是他们的朋友（但感觉像是“亲蜜朋友”）
一上巴士，我就坐在那女生的后面，起初没什么的，只是觉得那女生很吵，因为她开“炸歌”很大声。过后，看到那两个售票员跟她很熟似的才知道他们是朋友。
渐渐的，看他们的举止，听他们的谈话，我就开始感到很不舒服。刚开始，我看到眼前的情景是，两个男生似乎想讨好那女生，而那女的，感觉就像个女皇，在那儿使唤两个男子。
然后，从他们的谈话中，都一直出现三字经，就连那女生，句句都是三字经，而且讲话粗声粗气的。我坐在他们的后面，我感到很尴尬，不知为甚么的，就觉得很尴尬，很不自在。
更糟糕的是，我过后才发觉，原来我不知不觉得摆了个臭脸，哈哈。。。。
我心里深处有种好像很看不起他们的感觉，我很茅盾的想，究竟是我太高档了？还是这种感觉是正常的？
Monday, March 2, 2009
永别了，爱情故事
如果不是那镜子不像你不藏秘密
我还不肯相信没有你我的笑更美丽
那天听你在电话里略带抱歉的关心
我嘟的一声切得比你说分手彻底
泪湿的衣洗干净 阳光里晒干回忆
折好了伤心明天起 只和快乐出去
这爱的城市虽然拥挤如果真的遇见你
你不必讶异我的笑她无法代替
离开你 我才发现自己那爱笑的眼睛
流过泪像躲不过的暴风雨淋湿的昨天删去
离开你我才找回自己那爱笑的眼睛
再见爱情 我一定让自己让自己决定
泪湿的衣洗干净 阳光里晒干回忆
折好了伤心明天起 只和快乐出去
这爱的城市虽然拥挤如果真的遇见你
你不必讶异我的笑她无法代替
离开你 我才发现自己那爱笑的眼睛
流了泪当一个人看旧电影是我不小心而已
离开你我才找回自己那爱笑的眼睛
再见到你 我一定让自己让自己坚定
离开你 我才发现自己那爱笑的眼睛
流过泪像躲不过的暴风雨淋湿的昨天忘记
离开你我才找回自己那爱笑的眼睛
再见爱情 我一定让自己让自己坚定
再见到你 我一定让自己假装很坚定
这首歌，徐若瑄的爱笑的眼睛。。。
听着听着，心情也突然的低落，也许其中的故事有几分象似吧。。。
突然间，心里感到很累了，也许，今天过后，一切都结束了吧，延续了几个月的“战争”，终于也因为他今天回去澳洲而结束了。
感觉很讽刺，就好像是终于看完了一部没有完美结局的连续集，就是那种低落感。
一切都结束了，心里无论舍得与否，到了今天，应该放开了。
其实心里很茅盾，原本以为已经放下了，但为甚么现在会如此的伤心？我不是已经侧低放弃他了吗？我认为，我心里很清楚这是一段不值得的爱情了，也许此时会如此伤心，是因为我一次又一次的经历失败的爱情吧。
之前很执着的决定，这次他回马，无论如何都要见他一面。很早以前，见他可能是希望能得到一个复合的机会。过后，放下了，希望能见他，是为了把自己从这段伤心故事拯救出来，想要很勇敢的面对这段失败的爱情。在他回马的这段时间，我们都有试过约时间见面，但却一次又一次的不成功，直到有一天读了一篇文章，它的重点是说分手了，最好都不要见面了，因为分手后不可以做朋友,因为彼此伤害过,不可以做敌人,因为彼此深爱过,所以我们变成了最熟悉的陌生人，也因为这样，见面与否都已经不重要了。因为这篇文章，我也变得不执著了，而且，当我读到这篇文章时，都已经接近他回澳的日子了。
再说，当我们一次又一次的不成功见面时，我也想开了，很多事情真的不能免强，顺其自然就好。也许这次我们跟本没缘分见面，也许上天要让我们大家都成熟了才让我们又有缘的见吧。
如果你问我说，我是不是很在意这次没得和他见面，所以才那么多的感触？我想我的答案是，因为感到遗憾吧。
自从分手，我都没有真正的哭过，但今天，现在，我却痛痛快快的大哭一场。。。。。。也许，这是一种解脱吧。
终于，这段故事也到了结局，这场战场，之前所做的一切，改变自己，甚至为了让自己能早点痊愈而到处去认识新的男性，这一切一切，也该停止了。我真的累了，这场战我真的打得很累了。
永别了，这段远距离爱情，这段故事将永远埋在我心里，希望你一切顺利，好好照顾自己。
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