First Post for Year 2011

回来了~

昨天（31/12/2010),我跟了同事出去庆祝倒数。。。我跟了一个我在公司认识了一年多的同事，但平时我对他不会有太多交际的男同事。跟他出去和他的朋友一起聚会。。。

我们到了sunway，原本是要找个地方坐下来谈天而已，哪知到处都转成Club了，没办法，就去The Opera 开酒，clubbing...这也是我第一次自己和陌生人去Clubbing...

总的来说，是不错的，因为他的朋友们都很好人，大家都是正经人。。。

今晚后，我发现我心里有很严重的一道墙，有个很巩固的心墙，我真的很怕恋爱了，哪怕连爱上的勇气都没有了。。很严重，很严重。。。我不知道该怎么办。。。。

2011，请赐我勇气，好吗？

其实还想你

其实还是再乎你，其实还是想念你，其实心里还是深深的住着你，其实很想去找你，其实很想跟你从新来过，其实很多话想跟你坦白，其实。。其实有太多的其实。。。。。。

为什么我们都变得这样？我们不是应该好好的吗？我们不是都将对方好好的计划的吗？

就因为你的不守信？就因为放不下我的尊严？

啊。。。。就快疯掉了！

伤，应该要怎样去疗？生活，生命，可以从新来过吗？

我错了，我不应该好奇的去看看你最近如何。。。

因为，我看到了很多不该看到的东西，你和她，很幸福吧？

我。。。到底有没有资格去拥有幸福呢？

心，很痛很痛。。。

伤，应该要怎样去疗？生活，生命，可以从新来过吗？

以为你还在

Jyin傅健颖- 以为你还在 (Official MV)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3RyRvrawbDQ

我以为你还在 我还等着你回来 一起看海拥抱海的澎湃 数到三还不来 回忆不释怀 我在等待 可是你永远都不会回来.....

简单就是美

今天和我的宝贝闲谈了一下，也问了她关于他的事情，才发觉说，简单真的是最美丽的东西了　＝）

也许越简单，心思就会越集中吧？她的他，听起来简简单单的，但却给了她满满的爱与感动。相比与那些离简单很远的人，他们的心思不再只环绕在他与她之间，而是远比他与她更远的空间，所以心思也分布在很多很多的事情上了。

宝贝，我开心你找到你的幸福，我也和你一样，期待着那天的到来，我要和你一起见证你把自己的幸福都交给他的那一刻，我要一起感染你的幸福洋溢。。。。爱你哦　(^.^)/

S.C.A.R.E

I am at the office now, sitting in front of my pc, with all the Documents scattered around, awaiting me to clear them off..... BUT .... my mind is stuck, i couldn't concentrate at all !!

Because, i am feeling nervous to make the dental appointment with the dentist.... I am now still suffering from toothache =(

I cant concentrate on my work ! Because i know that i must MAKE AN APPOINTMENT with the dentist for my dental checkup tonight (T.T) But....... i keep on drag n drag n drag as i couldnt stop imagine what will happen tonight when i go to the dentist...

ArGh !!! Gonna go crazy soon !

我很无能。。。

死能解决的问题，还是问题吗？

我很无能。。。。我也很自私。。。。

Who am I ?

Who Am I ? 我是谁？

突然又迷失了自己，我究竟是谁？其实我是个怎么样的人？

我不属于任何人，也不属于任何地方，那其实，我是谁呢？

我想开始写日记了

好久好久都没有写日记了，突然又想要好好经营我的部落格了。。。。加油吧！

出来！！！

必须一直提醒自己，不能再踩进好不容易才能爬出来的洞了，不能再这样！

一定是最近生活有点闷，所以才会有这样的想法，这样的感觉。。

拜托，别再踩进去了，不要了!

moody ~

Feeling not happy at this moment. It has been a while for not updating my blog, due to i had started my first career since last week, and this is already the second week.

Well, a lot of things that i would wish to update, but i am always very tired after work, and there is some time where my network is really bad when i really wish to update my blog ....

Anyway, will update it soon, have lots to share with everyone ....

Btw, not happy at this moment = (

Good Bye Oil and Gas .......... [with heartache]

Jie Fu Ry ~~~ bad jie fu ry~~~ make me think of the oil and gas company's interview again.... make my heart so painful now.... arhhhh...... make me recall of how stupid am i to miss the good chance to enter this industry...... sobsob ...

I was waiting for good news from them, how i wish that the HR manager can call me for an interview.... because tat day i was just having a short interview with a head, but not yet a formal face to face interview with the HR, but ...... as i mentioned in my blog, i dun think that the person is satisfy with me from the short interview because i really failed to perform well....... and til now, no any news from them at all =(

Sigh ~~~ how i wish that there is a second chance. .... but, no matter how, i need to learn to let go now.....

Still.... i wish to have good news from them, wish me luck ~

Not in a good mood today (v_v)

I got my first interview today, i got a call from their HR Manager to talk to me about my application, and then she pass the call to a Head to have a short interview with me. Well, i din do really well in the interview thru phone just now and i was quite nervous as this happen quite sudden.

Well, cut the story short, wat make me sad was that i got the wrong company name and tats lead me for a wrong company information ..... and i was so embarrassing during the interview just now as i asked them the wrong company name and end up i need to ask for the correct company name, OMG !

Actually this company was recommended by my ex-boss, and also helped out by my dad's fren, few days ago, my dad sent me an email, which is an email from his fren, saying tat my ex-boss's fren need a material engineer and he recommended me and asked me to call for job opportunity, but unfortunately, he mistaken the company's name, it should be *EV , but he type wrongly as *VE , which is also doing engineering field company, but with different industry. That's why i found the wrong info bout the company. After tat, when i do research on this company, onli i realised, wow, is an oil and gas industry company, is an industry field that many of us wil opt to go for and is really hard to get in, especially with my lousy result. I felt so wasted because if i could know the company correct information, then i wil ans more better just now.

Well, what passed is passed, just hope for a better day tomolo ~~ But, i am really grateful to everyone who helped me, especially my dad, and also my ex-boss who recommended me into that company. This really shows that, one who sincerely perform well in the company will get their pay one day.

I felt moody whole day, for not perform perfectly just now, although is just a phone interview, but ... really missed a good chance. However, i am feeling better now after sharing in this blog.

Wish to have a better chance tomolo ~ Gambatte !


[p/s: Shocking news today, Michael Jackson passed away, quite sad also.... wish him rest in peace]

写给啊鸿的。。。。

感谢我的一位红颜知己，正确来说是曾经的红颜知己，因为我们也好一段日子没好好联络了。

没想过我的部落格也有忠实粉丝，哈哈哈，谢谢你咯，啊鸿 ^_^ 虽然知道看看我的部落格应该也是为了你过过时间，但也已经足够了！！

这一篇是为你而写的，虽然很简短，但我真的想表达我的喜悦和感激，谢谢你的期待与支持咯 ^_^

To Mr.NoName

Dear Mr.No Name,

I guess u are on the flight now, since u said tat ur flight wil be at 1am.... I hope tat u wil have a safe flight. Even though you never do wat u promised to me before and i also have nothing to say for that, since, its so complicated...... I myself also dunno wat i m i thinking and wat i wan.

Anyway, i wish tat u wil do wat u promised to do four months later, i wish tat everything wil come true and be fine. I dunno wat will happen in the future but at least this is wat i wish at this moment.

Hope u have a safe flight and reach safe, good night.

容忍。。。。真的是有限度的

今天，NoName 终于打电话给我了，就在上午，电话突然响起。但，我没接，都已经让我等了两，三天，就在我完全想放弃时，他才突然来电，当时的心情根本就不想听到任何和他有关的消息。所以就没接了。。。但后来，却又想知道他到底想对我说什么，于是我便讯息他问他是否刚打来？

哪知，他整天都没有任何回应，我等也等到累了。直到晚上十点多他才送一封forward msg 给我。于是我问他最近怎样，回马见家人肯定很开心，他却回我一封“想你咯”。我再回他说，“哈哈~~有吗~~？那这几天都在做什么?" 他又完全没回复了。

吼！我好累哦。。。一而再的容忍他对我的忽冷忽热，我真的忍到累了。真的真的不知道他到底在想什么？有时在想，其实这种性格的他，是不是根本就不适合我？我是不是应该对他放手了？以免错过更好的人？

NoName, 你可以坦坦白白，实实在在的告述我你到底心里在想什么？你到底想怎样？请尽快解决我的疑问好吗？好让我知道，我该不该再等下去？？

容忍，真的有限度的，别一而再的靠验我的忍耐，总有一天我会忍无可忍而退步离开~~

New Target

Well, my target now is not gonna wait for Mr. Right to appear in my life anymore....

From today onward, my target is to concentrate and finish my final exam until 8th of May, after tat my target is to earn and save more money so that i can have trip with my babes on end of the year (hopefully we stil can plan that) and also to save money for an oversea trip with my lovely cousin....

Where should we go ?? We decided to look on where Air Asia destinations will be and suggested whether to go philipine or vietnam, since .... i dun think i have the money to go for europe countries or other high expenses countries yet... That's y, lets start with affordable country, hehe.... = )

Feel so happy to have this target now, lets work hard to realise it ! Ganbatte

不再做笨女孩咯~~

Nothing much to update, since already decided that there is no point waiting for this mr.noname anymore..... Waited for two days but there is no single contact at all, what is in his mind? i don know, but wat i know is tat, guys are all very good in bull-shitting. They can said something that is so nice, so sweet, promise things that are so wonderful, but end up, they are so failure in doing action.

Chatted with my lovely cousin, we were in the same situation (I guess....), waiting for someone that we thought might be worth waiting for, but end up, there are endless disappointment. Maybe we are too naive in the world so called L-O-V-E. We tend to believe everything and tend to believe that one's heart is true and sincere, should we call us naive?? haha ......

Well, there is no big deal i think, is good to see clearly about someone, rather than to just being so stupid to go round and round inside his world, at least, know i can know who is worthy and who is not. Mayb this is the process that i need to go thru in order to find my Mr.Right.

To my lovely cousin, lets not be a naive girl anymore and i believe that, there will be a right guy out there waiting for us, Yeah ~~